Splash Love

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It has been three days since that awkward moment. Three long days since I confessed to him. Three days na rin akong nagtatago kay Jay. He's been texting and calling me since that day pero I ignored him. Hindi ko pala kayang harapin siya after that.

I really thought it would be a start for me. That after I confessed to him, everything will be better. At least, for me. Pero hindi eh. This is one of the times I wished I have a girl as a best friend. May best friend nga ako, lalaki naman. Tapos mahal ko pa! Saklap di ba?

I breathed a sigh and just stared ahead. I'm in school waiting for my next class. Nakatambay lang sa ilalim ng puno like Jay and I used to do. Jay na naman. Hay naku!

Dei... Can we talk?

I stiffened. Nilingon ko siya. Of course it was Jay. I heaved another sigh and nod him in acknowledgment.

Uhm... how are you? I've been trying to call you but you don't pick up. What's happening Dei? We need to talk about the other day. About what you said.

I feel myself blushed. God, this is awkward! I really need to lady up and face this mess.

Jay, I'm okay. It's been hard for me, uhm, confessing that to you but I'm okay. I just want to get it out of the way because you know, I need to do it. It feels like it has been holding me back. And now that it's out in the open, I am actually feeling great.

He just stared back at me. I tried to keep my expression neutral. I need to suck this up so that he won't be worried. I don't want him pitying me. My feelings might be rejected but I don't want some pity. I'm a big girl. I'll get past this.

But Dei, about what you said you uhm, love me. I just can't...

I stopped him right there. God, it feels like a slap in the face seeing his expression while saying that. Seems to me that me loving him is difficult for him to understand.

Hey! Don't worry. I'm okay. We're okay. Just ignore everything I said and let's just move on from here, alright? I didn't tell you my feelings so that you would love me back. That would be ridiculous, right? The Campus Heartthrob Jay falling for The Campus Wallflower Dei? Impossible! And I ended up that rant with a laugh. Trying to hide the pain in that hurtful truth.

Dei! I heard him say indignantly. Oh, Jay! You're such a nice guy. Don't make me fall more.

What? Let's be real here, Jay! I'm a nobody compared to the other girls you're attracted at.

Stop! How many times do I have to tell you you're not a nobody? You're amazing, Dei. Please don't belittle yourself.

Oh yeah? How come you can't like me then?