Sanders Sides One Shots

Moving On

*Warnings- really angsty, dwelling on the past, self-blame, and broken friendships.*

Even after all these years he still couldn't forgive himself. They kept telling him it wasn't his fault, but he refused to believe it. It had to be someone's fault. There had to be a reason for these things to happen, for someone to leave you.

He avoided leaving his home on the off chance he might see his old friend happy and over him. The chance that Roman could have moved on destroyed Angel. It was his worse fear because if Roman had moved on it meant that he would never come back.

He wished that he could move on.

Roman was kept up at night with the thought of what he did wrong. The thoughts of how he was unable to help Angel, how he was a horrible friend, how he couldn't protect someone from themselves.

He didn't know how to help, so he decided to leave. To avoid Angel, to push Angel away, even though they had been friends for years. He put on a smile and hung out with others, hoping that one day the lies would become truths. He hoped that one day he could fix what he broke, he hoped to forgive himself.

He wished he could move on.