Sanders Sides One Shots

Neither Say I Love You

He knew he shouldn't do it, but gosh darn Roman just looked so peaceful when he was in that small almost invisible nook.  In Logan's defense, it was so rare to see Roman look that calm, well at least it was rare for Logan. The others saw Roman calm a lot actually, but Logan could only see it when Roman had no idea he was there, maybe it was because they were always arguing with each other about what's the best course of action in a situation, or maybe it was because of the way Logan took away any sort of peacefulness in Roman and replaced it with fire.

Soon enough a pattern was established, where every Friday around one Logan would go to the library grab a book, open and instead of reading it, he would watch Roman for approximately 30 minutes before leaving. Of course, after a bit, 30 minutes weren't enough and Logan began to push to the point where he was leaving just a few minutes before Roman was. 

One day the inevitable happened, Roman caught Logan. It was a complete accident and if Logan didn't keep pushing his luck it could have been avoided, but Logan did keep pushing his luck, so they there were. Roman staring at Logan, wondering how long Logan had been there, while Logan looked like a deer caught in a pair of head lights. Before Roman could even utter a word Logan did the most logical thing in this situation and bolted towards his room.

He stayed there for a few hours, waiting until he thought everyone was asleep. He was wrong. Roman was sitting on the couch, hair messed up, looking nervous as all heck and staring at Logan's door.

Every part of Logan's mind was screaming for him run back to his room and hide until he could get control of whatever was making him act so illogically around Roman, but there was something in the way that Roman looked at Logan that pinned in place.

"Logan?" Roman asked his voice a raspy whisper.

Logan gulped and responded, "Yes?"

"Why were you watching me?" Roman asked, his voice still just a whisper.

"It's hard to explain," Logan replied, not looking Roman in the eye.

Roman asked,"Why did you run?" He needed some sort of answer.

Logan gave a shy smile before saying, "That's even harder to explain."

"Could try to explain it, cause I've been waiting here running through the options trying to figure it, but figuring stuff out isn't my area. It's yours." Roman replied, a tad bit frustrated, but the smile Logan gave was enough to hold off yelling.

Logan paused before saying, "I've never seen you look so peacefully as you looked then."

Roman cocked his. "What? I've looked like that before," he responded.

"Never around me," Logan replied a sad sort tone in his voice.

"Oh," there was a few minutes of silence before Roman asked, "Why did you run?"

Logan looked Roman in the eye. "To be honest, I was afraid," he answered in a soft voice.

Roman asked, "Of what? You know I would never hurt you."

"Maybe not on purpose" Logan paused afraid of the words, afraid of what they would mean for the future, "But words hold more sway over me than you may know"

"What do mean? You don't like me. How could my words have any power over you?"

"That's the thing, the more I watched, the more I talked, the more I realized you're not who I thought you were, the further I fell"

"Logan"

"You don't have to say anything, just go to bed. You look tired."

"No, wait" Roman protested, but it was too late Logan was already walking back to his room.

"Goodnight Roman," Logan said politely. 

Roman was devastated and as the door, he whispered, "I've fallen too"

The next morning you could feel the tension in the air as Roman waited for a chance to talk with Logan alone, to tell him how he feels, but it seemed like Logan was going out of his way to never be alone with him.

Finally, Roman was able to corner Logan and for a second he didn't know what to say. "You're an idiot" he managed to say after a few seconds of just staring at Logan.

Logan ran his hand through his hair. "Yes, I know I shouldn't have told you those things, but can just pretend like it didn't happen?" He practically pleaded.

"No, we can't. I refuse to." Roman replied because after so long of ignoring how Logan made him feel he wouldn't, couldn't go back to how things were before, not when he was close to getting what he wanted.

"What? Why? Things would be a lot easier if we pretended like I don't have unrequited feelings for you," Logan protested, wondering if Roman would be so cruel as to hold his feelings over him.

"They wouldn't be. It would destroy me to try and forget you feel the same way about me." Roman replied, moving a bit closer to Logan.

"Wait, what?" Logan asked, hoping he heard Roman correctly.

"I've fallen too," Roman whispered before lightly pressing lips against Logan's.

It wasn't exactly magical. It was awkward, a bit sloppy and Roman could taste the sandwich Logan had just eaten. It was pure perfection for the both of them.

When they broke apart all Logan could say was "Oh,"

Roman held back a laugh as he replied "Yeah, so umm, yeah" his stupidest grin on his face.

"That was very informative" Logan responded a bit awkwardly not knowing what to do from here.

Roman bit his lip before asking, "So, would you maybe wanna go on a date with me? You don't to if you don't want to, I was just thinking because you know the kiss was well it was something I would not be against doing again."

Logan smiled fondly at him before responding, "You're an idiot. Of course, I would love to go on a date with you, and about that kiss well we can do that again any time you like."

"Anytime?" Roman asked with a mischievous grin.

Logan answered, "Anytime"

The moment those words left Logan's mouth Roman had once again kissed him. This time it was a bit less awkward, the sandwich taste was faded, and it was still pure perfection.