Sanders Sides One Shots

Secrets

He was not ok. He wasn't bad yet, but that didn't mean he was ok it just meant that he had a little more control over things. Today started off as a good day, and he started off ok, but then he got into a fight with his boyfriend, Roman. This wasn't the type of fight that ended in I'm sorries and hugs, this was the type of fight that ended in screaming and slammed doors. He didn't know if it was the screaming or the slammed doors that were worse.

"Maybe, it's the silence," He thought as he sat by the door to his bedroom waiting to hear, no hoping to hear the sound of Roman's footsteps approaching. He heard nothing. He got up and flopped onto his bed and started to think about the fight.

It had started off with gentle teasing, which turned into a heated debate, which led to an angry argument about why they Anxiety wanted to keep the relationship hidden. Finally, it became a screaming match because they were both too stubborn to see the other's point of view. Now, Anxiety was not ok. He knew how to start on the road of becoming ok, but he was too prideful, or maybe he was too scared of rejection, too even dare leave his room and walk down the hall to where Roman surely was. 

A knock on the door pulled him from his thoughts and his heart soared at the idea that it could be Roman coming to talk to him about what happened. It wasn't Roman. That much was clear when the door opened and Anxiety saw a familiar face, but not the face he wanted to see. As he stared at Logan's face, tears started to form in his eyes. Blink. The tears fell. He was crying. Through his tears, he was able to somewhat make out the concern on Logan's face.

 Logan sat down on the bed next to Anxiety and asked, "What's wrong," not wasting time on asking questions with obvious answers. 

Anxiety took a moment to think about what to do. He couldn't tell Logan about the fight because that would raise too many questions, questions he would rather leave unanswered. "I don't know," he sniffled as he tried to gain some composure.

"Try imaging Roman dead," Logan said casually, hoping that it would help lift Anxiety's spirits. t did not.

"Oh god, what if he does die? What if he dies believing I hate him? Or dies hating me? This is bad really bad," Anxiety thought, his heart beat quickening and the crying turning into loud and heavy sobs. 

Logan was shocked, this was not what he was expecting.  He was expecting Anxiety to laugh or at least smile, not get worse. He had no idea how to react. This went against what normally happened, he had no data on this.

Another person knocked on the door, but neither heard it because Anxiety was too lost in his own mind and Logan was too busy trying to figure out a way to help Anxiety to pay attention to his surroundings. 

"Ann, Kitten, what's wrong?" Roman asked rushing into the room and wrapping Anxiety into a hug. Logan took this as a sign that he should probably leave the two alone, so he snuck out of the room, while Roman gentle whispered into Anxiety's ear. 

For a few minute Anxiety didn't notice that Logan was gone and that Roman was there. He was to caught up in his own mind to notice anything that was going, but as he started to calm down he noticed that someone was holding him. He was confused because he knew that Logan hated to be intimate with people other than Patton, so why would he be hugging him? Almost immediately as he thought that he realized that it wasn't Logan holding him, it was Roman. 

"I'm sorry," Roman said when he noticed that Anxiety's breathing had become more normal.

Anxiety shifted to look at his boyfriend and asked, "Why? It's my fault we fought," He looked down not able to meet Roman's eyes. 

Roman felt his heart break as he noticed how red Anxiety's are and how defeated he sounded. "Anx, Love, it's ok. I shouldn't have pushed you before you were ready. I know you love me," He gently gripped Anxiety's chin and turned his head to face him before lightly pressing their lips together.

When the pulled apart Anxiety said, "Soon, we'll announce our love soon," 

Soon wouldn't come for another year, but Roman didn't care how long it took for them to announce their relationship anymore, all he cared about was that he did have a relationship with Anxiety.