Tied By The Moon | Editing

Chapter 22

Despite the presence of my wolf in my mind, I felt as lonely as ever.

Between my paranoia of Orion returning and finishing what he started, and the aching pains I felt all over my body, I wasn't able to close my eyes for a few seconds at a time.

It was late, obviously, and again I was lying in silence, waiting for whatever it was that was supposed to come, when I heard it.

A howl.

The howl was filled with sorrow, regret. It was heart wrenching, it twisted my insides and stirred up my wolf. I wanted to go and comfort whoever was howling, but I couldn't, knowing who it was.

Orion.

Anya was right, Orion was howling to the Moon, he was asking for forgiveness, for the chance to be taken back by me, to be accepted by my wolf again.

Well...too bad.

He had lost that privilege, and no amount of howling was going to make up for the damage he caused to my wolf, to my body, to my soul.

I listened to the howl for a while and wondered if Orion knew I was listening. He seemed to be pouring his heart out, like a powerful bellow of noise from deep withing a monster.
Which is a suitable description for him, Orion proved to not only strip himself of the title of my mate, but also gain one whilst doing so.

Monster.

The thought was terrifying; that I was mated to a monster. It seemed clear to me that we weren't going to complete the mating process, he would never mark me, we'd never mate and we'd never have pups.

I wouldn't allow it.

But the pull of two mates, especially an Alpha to his female, is strong in many ways. I feared that the scent of my heat would, one day, be too strong so he couldn't hold himself back.

And then what?

Squeezing my eyes shut, I did my best to block out the sound of Orion's howl, which had now stopped, but the memory of it would surely haunt me for the rest of the night.

I had no doubt in my mind Orion would try to win me back, or at least do something so I could tolerate him.

I knew I'd have to hold my ground and not give into whatever he would do, which would be easier said than done.

But as I slowly drifted off to sleep that night, I remembered the last time I spoke to the Moon, and what she told me to do.

I had to heal.

I leaned to the healing of my body, still traumatised by the scars Orion inflicted on me. But my wolf, her priorities weren't mine and she begged the healing of our relationship.

But with my situation, I wasn't sure I could do both.

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That took a while...

As you could probably tell, this chapter was a little shorter than I hoped to be.

I'm super sorry to all of you who waited days for me to update, as I said on as previous post, Wattpad deleted the three and a half chapters I had planed to post, and I had to start again.

I've started school again, so updates may be anywhere from one day to a week. I have a pot of tests right now and, while I do live Wattpad, I think school is more important. 

Thank you all for your support!

P.S. Comment if any of you have watched the series 13 Reasons Why, I freaking LOVE it.