Tied By The Moon | Editing

Chapter 35

Orion took his seat opposite me, nodding to initiate the conversation and showing an expressionless face, which was expected from him. I nodded too, fiddling with my hands as I looked around his desk.

The sun was setting, and it cast a warm, inviting glow into the room that calmed my nervousness. I wouldn't know how Orion would react to what I was about to say, maybe he would be outraged, maybe he would be understanding.

But I knew I could take advantage of the fact he was slightly vulnerable now, remorseful to the pain he caused me.

My wolf paced in my mind, but she seemed content with the atmosphere and didn't seem too tense.

"I need to go."

Orion's eyes snapped towards mine, we met in the middle with a stare down, but he said nothing. I averted my eyes, squeezing them shut and willing him to be flexible just this once.

"Why?"

I sighed, he didn't seem too angry, but he didn't seem very happy either. Still, him questioning it meant he was open to the idea, if only slightly, and it made me hopeful that I could get through to him.

"The whispering. I...my brother, he's alive." I explained, stumbling slightly on my speech as I struggled to get the words out.

He raised an eyebrow.

"What about your brother being alive makes you want to leave?"

This time his tone was slightly angry, questioning me as if I were a misbehaving pup.

I sighed, I was beside myself with tiredness and wasn't ready to argue. Either he would let me go, or I would leave.

"I wasn't always a rogue. But I was banished after I challenged my Alpha for killing my mother. The whispering, it told me my father had died as a result of the alpha's anger but my brother was still alive and I don't know if going back will kill me but i have to know."

By the end of it my breath was heavy, tears pricked my eyes and I stood up, going to the window to let the tears out.

"I loved Alistair," I began again, ignoring the low growl that escaped Orion's lips. "But you killed him and I've had too many deaths in my lifetime to mourn like a widow."

I faced Orion again and watched as he bristled and ran a hand through his hair. I avoided his eyes and wiped away my tears, both of anger and sadness.

"What about Keiko and Marcos?" He asked, still without emotion.

"They stay here. If you'll allow it, if not I don't know. I can't risk this happening to them again." I replied.

"They can stay. I wouldn't have it any other way. You're reckless and careless and can't protect them on your own."

I winced at his words, but ignoree the insult. He was right. This whole situation was my fault.

"I know you'll look after them." I said quietly, giving him a small smile.

He stood up as well and I flinched, watching him as my heart beat sped up. He came towards me and stopped in front of me, looking down at me with his brow hardened.

"I want to work on our relationship when you get back." He said, reaching up to pat the top of my head. 

I shrunk away from his touch, nodding but knowing fully well that I would never do that. Still, it was nice to know he would be waiting for me.

Sincerely, I think we both knew it would never work, but Orion had been hurt in his youth and didn't know what to expect, I guess it had halted his development of other people's feelings and made his own feelings rigid and uncertain.

"If I need help will you come?" I suddenly asked.

I was testing the waters with this request, I knew he could easily say no, but I also knew that running into another pack demanding my brother would be a suicide mission. I needed to know if he would be there for me, if not just this once.

It could seal our fate together even, we could start again, yes, I would always have the thoughts of what he'd done in my memories but if he helped me I would know that he wasn't all bad, that he had a small ounce of pity in his heart. 

He nodded. "Of course, I will always help you."

I sighed in relief as he walked back to his desk, still looking at me as he began to fiddle with the work on his desk.

"I...guess this is goodbye then?" He said, and I turned to face him.

"Yes," I said, "I think it is."