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Chapter 27

Orion has had a dark past, yes, even I will admit that humbly, but in no way does that justify the behaviour he has displayed to me in my time here. In no way, either, can I fathom the amount of willpower it must have taken to keep himself going after all the abuse he experienced as a child.

Yet, only a part of me I can say truly felt sorry for him, but a larger part of me still despised him with a burning hatred. Still, I guess that was what long walks were; clearing your head and such. It gives you the sense that you're alone, that all that plagues your mind is gone from the world as you calmly made your way through the trees that grew tall and proud despite the chaos around them.

As of now, the sky is bathed in a deep, rich dark blue, and the winds blowing between the leaves, and the trees, and the bushes is refreshing, so I can't help but stop and inhale every time a gust starts up.

My wolf, for once, was at peace within me. Seemingly she knew that I needed this, she knew of the things that haunted me constantly, and I guess she finally took it upon herself to let me rest. Yet, I spent most of my time tracing the scars I know bore like a warning, tears rolled down my face as fingers touched the jagged lines that kissed my skin. If I had not been an aggressive wolf before, the scars would surely make me look more like it.

Completing my second round of the forest, I decided it was time to head back and made my way to the pack house, keeping my head down in case I spotted Orion. It was unusual of me to be so calm when thinking of him, but after all that had gone on today I was craving some much needed rest.

The house was silent when I entered, and I concluded it was because it was past the time of howling, which was the latest anyone could be awake. I did my best to navigate back to Orion's room unnoticed, and, upon seeing the room was empty, I laid myself down on the sofa I was assigned and went to sleep.

Sleep came to me easily, and in no time I was unaware of what was going on around me. However, I was still on high alert. It had become sort of a routine for me to wake up, maybe every twenty minutes, and check if Orion was in the room, he'd had an effect on me that I had never experienced before, and that alone was enough to make me cautious of everywhere I went.

Tears sprung to my eyes every time I thought of him, and how he ruined me, then it was followed by a cursing that nobody should ever hear. It was brutal, but I was glad nobody was there to see it, I could handle things on my own just fine.

Curled up in a ball, I lay with tears still evident on my cheeks, and hiccups escaping from my lips ever so often. My sobs racked my insides, and they echoed throughout the room, blocking out all the noises that could've been going on, so it was only when I smelled his scent, did I clamp my mouth shut and bury myself deeper within the blanket.

The soft padding of his feet is what followed, I could smell him close to me. I could feel his eyes watching my vulnerable body and I hated it. He knew I was awake, my breathing was harsh, I was tense, and my heart was pounding as if I was chasing a deer instead of cursing my mate.

"Alastrine, I-" He began.

"Don't," I said quickly, shutting my eyes tight, "Do not come near me, do not try and speak to me, nor will you try and touch me. Do not breath near me, nor look in my direction and try to catch my eye. Do not offer me things or try to reconcile with me because I tell you now it will not work. It will just cause me pain, and you anger. So I tell you, Alpha, do not say a single word to me." I breathed out, tightening my grip around my waist.

Orion, with a single breath, breathed out the word 'No' with a softness I had never heard from him.

I growled, deep and curdling so I'm sure he got the message. I sprung up with a snarl on my face, my eyes blazing as I pushed him back.

"No? Seriously? Tell me no when my pack is back together and we're all safe and sound, tell me no when I can live without fear that you will lose your temper and slit my neck. Tell me no when the females down there give me respect at all times, instead of the times they feel remorseful. Tell me no when I am not ashamed of myself for feeling pity for you, of all things. And tell me no, when I am not scared of showing my scars, when my body is not littered with these reminders of what you did to me...of how broken I am." I said, my voice cracking weakly at the last bit.

I growled at him once more and climbed back onto the sofa, burying myself in the blanket and squeezing my eyes shut for a second time, hoping it would drown out the sound of his heartbeat ringing in my ears.

I heard him sigh, it sounded defeated, full of sorrow, but I remained strong in my heart as he spoke.

"I just wanted to ask if I could take you out again?" He said, and then his feet moved away from where I was.

A small gasp escaped my lips, but I can tell you that that is all that I said. Still, I remained awake in my bed, not closing my eyes for a second in fear of what would happen if I did.

And that was how it stayed for the rest of the night.

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Whoops. *Sheepish smile*

It's been a while since I posted, huh. And God, am I sorry. There's not much else to say, I could give a whole paragraph on why I didn't post and why I wasn't active, but that would take me a while and I'm not really bothered.

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My update schedule is the same as what it was before, from a day to a week, but as I haven't been posting I'll up it to every three days just to get into things.

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