Telling's from the heart

Regrets then, Regrets now, Regrets forever.(Burn out in the water)

Every day!

Every day,

I try my best.

You just sit there and watch 

A scavenger come to eat what is left.

I don’t know anymore

With those whispered remarks:

YOU ARE BETTER! YOU AREN’T THIS SHIT!

DON’T LET US DOWN BECAUSE WE DIDN’T DO THIS!

Well guess what?

Every day!

Every fucking day,

Feels like a test

To challenge my time left on this earth.

Will I allow the currents to rip me to shreds?

Will I finally find a branch that will lead me to the top?

Or will I peacefully go?

I’ll meet you later

In a better place.

I don’t know what to do!

I feel Shamed of this,

I feel Overwhelmed for that.

I can’t Reach this,

I can’t Right that.

I won’t Yearn for them.

Stop adding coal to the engine,

The tires will soon burn out.

The train will expload,

Now look what has become 

Of a person who “didn’t deserve this”.

I dream of one day,

Coming home with a pass

And a joyous expression whilst saying

“Look! 

I did it! Everything is gone for something I deserve.

I have an A! I have an A!”

Responsive faces that connect 

With a sentiment of a pat on the back,

Not deadpaned zombies 

Reflecting what I know

To return to the daily basis

Because life is of more.

No one can get it!

Some are more frightened,

Some learn to strengthen.

I’ve been able to do both 

But now I don’t know where to go.

I have lost my road.

I have lost my soul.

I have lost the hands.

I have lost the toys.

It’s just a heartbeat now

With harmonies singing

And a mind racing.

To scared to leave.

To frightened to ask.

Staying in a bottle 

Is what I can pass the best.

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Honestly, you should really hold onto something and don't let it go.