Remember me? (TeacherxStudent) (Lesbian Stories)

Chapter 34 - Smut

Holly swallowed hard and looked at Ayla. How on earth was she supposed to do this? She was going to break her heart, something that she never ever wanted to do.

"Ayla, there's something I need to tell you."

She began to look worried. "What is it?"

The two of them sat down in the living room on opposite seats and looked at each other, Ayla was fragile and Holly was always the one who protected her. But now she couldn't protect her from the truth.

"You know how I told you that I lived in America for a while, right?"

"yeah?"

"Well, I met a girl while I was there. It ended after a couple of months after I had a car accident with Elliot who was my best friend at the time. I told you about it right, do you remember? It made me forget a lot of things, and I wasn't able to remember her anymore. I had a lot of trouble after everything that happened and that was when Alex decided that he wanted me to come home because he felt like I wasn't safe there."

Ayla shuffled nervously in her seat as her girlfriend spoke to her. She was terrified of what she was going to say next.

"Where are you going with this? Please just tell me what's going on. You're scaring me."

"She came here to find me, Ayla. Last week, Alex told me that he met her in the city. She came all the way here to find me after a whole year. I cut her off and changed my number and I thought that was the end of it all. But she came to find me. And the stupidest thing is..." Holly laughed sadly and shook her head.

"The saddest thing is, I still love her. Ayla, I love her and I just can't explain it because I don't even remember the things we had before my accident. I've never felt like this about anyone."

Ayla put her head in her hands and Holly realised what she'd just said. Fuck. Now she thought that Holly had never cared about her. She went over to where the girl was sat and knelt down in front of her, putting her hands on her legs.

"God, please don't think that I don't care about you, because I do. I didn't mean it like that. I really do. You're amazing, and you are one of the kindest people i've ever met. I wanted to make you happy and I wanted to do my best for you, but I've realised now that I'm only going to disappoint you. Trust is the most important thing in a relationship and I can't expect you to trust me when i'm thinking about someone else."

Ayla burst into floods of tears at the thought of breaking up with her girlfriend. Holly tried to put a comforting arm about her, but she only pushed her away.

"Don't touch me." she whispered through the tears.

"I'm so, so sorry. Alya you have to believe me. I didn't expect any of this to happen and I promise that what we had was real. But when I saw her again, all of those feelings came back and I just can't let it go."

"You..you promised this was it." She sniffled. "You said we could be together forever. and I really believed you. We even spoke about getting engaged, remember? Why are you doing this? I don't understand."

She got up from the sofa and made her way to the door in a flood of tears. Holly got up and followed her close behind, desperate for her not to leave half way through the conversation.

"I'm not going to make excuses, Ayla. But you have to understand, I didn't want this to happen. It just did..and I'm sorry. I really am. But you deserve someone who can make you happy. And you will find that person, but it's not me."

She picked up her bag from beside the door and went out to the car.

"Where are you going?" Holly shouted, standing at the front door.