The Exception

Chapter 9

Heading down to Hawaii I knew that I had limited time to work with kanye but I needed to be in and out because of the album. Mark had been taking to me about scheduling and I was really pushing it by helping out Mr. west.

When I came there were about 50 other people roaming around the studio and trying to help out. It wasn't until like the third day that I finally got to see Kanye and he didn't know what he was looking for. That really messed with me because I didn't have the time to stay around and let him foege out what was going on. So when I was with him I played him beats and samples that I liked and he finally made some ground when he told me that he wanted to feature me on a song.

By the third week of February we still hadn't made any progress with the song or even the beat and I had to leave. I told someone that works around kanye that I had to leave and it was really no hard feelings but my shit had to get done. As soon as I landed back in California I had like an interview a day and the label wanted me to do some mass promotion.

That basically meant hitting up any urban radio stations along with online blogs and reports. Then I would also have to do he TV shit and it had been minute since that happened. I didn't know if I had enough time to do it all but I would have to try. I would also have to try and figure out how to finish up the album and get that out ASAP to the stores. No one in my management team knew of we had enough time but i wasn't willing to push the date back.

By the time we made it to Houston I had about a week until March and the album was dropping on the 2nd. I had to do seething special for the fans so I decided to do some pop up shows and then I still had the pre-listening party. That would have to happen in Toronto because I had to make a special appearance at wills show. Mark was lvid when I told him that I was in
Canada but the constant hustle was starting to get to me. I remember sitting in the hotel lobby with some or my dudes and we were smoking. The hostess was mad chill about us being there but like I was on some super high. I wasn't the type to get faded before a show but this weed has me on a whole new level.

Carter, "yo J what's going on with you?like you're really smoking out before a show"

Me, "yeah man the heat is building up and I'm not with it. It's just some stupid type of shit going on and Im ready to just home and just do me"

Carter, "really? what's going on man"

Me, "I'm either in the studio or I'm at some radio shot. They all ask the same damn stupid ass questions and expect me to be cool with it. Like if I wanted the world to know all about my shit then I would let them know. Like I'm just ready to retire from this shit"

Carter, "you're just tired of all the media shit that you have to do but you don't have to be aggressive with them. Just tell them some stupid ass stuff and don't take them seriously. You're fans have been waiting for a minute and they wanna hear that great stuff from back in the day"

Me, "that's the thing, I'm not the same person that I was before and people stay claiming mad stupid shit. Like I took a break to find myself and what I liked. If people don't like my new stuff then too fucking bad. I can't be bothered with them"

Carter, "okay. So let them go and do whatever makes you happy. I know that all this travel got to have some type of effect on your girl. What's she been saying about all this?"

Me, "damn nigga. I haven't gotten the chance to speak to my girl since like the end of January. We try and text here and there but it's mad complicated. I'm not even sure whats going on between me and her right now. What about you?"

Carter, "you know that's all on you. A girl ain't gonna throw herself at you and you already know how hard it is being with a rapper. So go and get with your girl. When the album drops go and see her, take her out so that she can feel appreciated"