The Exception

29

Breakfast

Me, "So what where you talking about this morning about the situation that we were in? I thought that we were trying to do some good and make some real changes in our relationship"

Nadya, "Listen don't even go there with me. You already know that we are both on two different pages and I can't help but think that maybe this trip will be a huge problem. Like I just feel so pressured that this lifestyle may not be what I want"

Me, "So what happened to us? It felt like a week ago we were on great terms and now we are just fallling apart. I don't understand why you aren't talking to me and taking me onto these problems"

Nadya, "Listen since we left Houston I've been hanging with the kids and while I enjoy that it isn't the same as being with you. I'm dealing with all these people and your mom is constantly just giving me attitude and I don't like that. I'm not running on some trip if I don't feel like I'm going to be happy"

Me, "So if you speak with my mom everything will be okay, right?"

Nadya, "I can't agree to anything right now because I really don't know if things are going to be right. I just don't feel the same as when we first started dating and that's a major concern"

Me, "So can you tell me what I can do to help us out, it's like I've been blind-sighted by this whole topic. I really didnt know that you were that unhappy with us, like this is my everyday life"

nadya, ' I know that this is your life but I just don't know if this is what I want. I think that we should just take this trip and then see where it leads us"

Me, "Nadya you can't just play with me like that, I really think that we should see someone because I really do enjoy having you around. It makes my life so much easier and you know how my life is, you know how hard I work to make sure that my whole family can live anyway that they want"

Nadya, " how am I playing you. I always tried with you and I don't want you to think that you didn't mean anything to me. I just think that we should do something good and make sure that something good comes from this trip"

Me, " Nadya don't even go the with me, you know from the start I was way into you and I would to do more than what was necessary to make us work, I'm not going to just let you walk away from me that easily"

Nadya, " you know I think that you are just trouble. So the one thing that I can stand about you is the fact that you are always willing to help others. When we get to europe im expecting you to hang out with me and then we can see where we stand"

Me, I want to know where we stand right now. I don't understand why you are acting all crazy on me. We were getting along so well and it's like you don't even want to fight for what we have, that's not okay with me"

nadya, "I don't understand why you don't just leave this alone already. It's like you really want to get into some crazy ground with me. I don't know what I think about us right now but we shouldn't do this now. I don't want to ruin this trip for you, I know how important this is for you"

Me, "this trip means nothing if you aren't there with me and actually enjoying it. I wanted to show you your life could be like me. I know the city can be sketchy at times and it changes people but I honestly think do we have a chance"

Nadya, " don't you have something to do. like you can't just be home all day"

Me,"I clearly don't think that it's going to be a good idea for me to be out in the streets doing crap if my girl isn't happy and my home is starting to fall apart. o I've worked long and hard in my life to make others happy and now is time to work on myself. I don't want to lose out on anything that means so much to me. I'm just asking that you give me a chance to price myself to you b and really wow you"

Nadya, " you should know what I'm down for and what I don't life, I do a lot for you and I don't mind doing it, one thing that I won't take is a disrespectful person that's always throwing shade at me, I don't like that and you haven't been doing anything to help me out"

Me, "babe if you're really mad at me for the whole thing about my mom then we can talk about that. I think that the best way to handle this is to just have c you two sit down and eat. I know that my mom can be difficult at times but the two of you can get along. As someone who I consider to be my wife I wouldn't want there to be any drama between you two"

Nadya, " wait what did you say?"

Me, "about what? "

Nadya, "you just said that you think that you're considering me as your wife, is that true? "

Me, "yeah I'm not going to lie about what and how I feel about you. I've grown a lot since we started dating and you have taken on a lot with b all the kids in the house. When my two brothers come out and take the kids is just going to be you me and Zion, that's going to be strange. The house is going to be so empty"

Nadya,"knowing your mom she's going to go crazy when she hear that I want to meet with her. I don't think that she's going to be open to having dinner with me alone. It would be easier if you came along with me but I would honestly need you to stand up for me and make some type of real decisions about our next steps"

Me, "Listen Im going to call her right now and see if she's going out tonight. Maybe we can get dinner and fix all the problems that the two most important people in my life are having"

Nadya, "okay but we also need to talk about your friends and what you are planning on doing once we get to europe. because I'm going to want to have some fun with you but you can't always be with your homeboys. that's not going to work for me"

Me, "damn nadya, all you want is some of this. I know that I look good and all that but I don't think that you're ready for all of this, it may get you into some things that you can't handle"

Nadya, "boy don't even go there with me. I can handle anything that you throw at me. I've been through craziness with my baby daddy and I can do all you"

Me, "listen I know that you try to hide your emotions some time and that can't always be a good thing. I just want you to know that if you ever need anything for Zion then I got you. That boy is my son, he's not just like one. If you ever feel like you need to talk to someone about the shit that he pulls then I'm there. Since we've gotten together you've never c talked about him to me but your sister told me that he's been around, don't you think that we should meet? "

Nadya, "I understand that you are a really good caretaker and I know that you have worked hard to make everyone happy but I think that we should wait on that meeting. The father of Zion isn't an easy person and he meet me when I wasn't in a actually good place. I know that if we have a nice trip then I would feel better with you two meeting"

I wanted to combine the conversation but I had to get to a magazine sit down. I barely did any of these magazine things but Mark thought that it would be a good idea. The editor was an ex of one of my homies so I didn't know if they were going to come after me or be good. For some  reason as I was about to head out the door I heard my nieces Kayla and Tati calling me. They wanted me to take them by some friend but I didn't want to be late. We ended up compromising and I had to take them to the interview but I was really worried about the questions and if it would be appropriate for the kids.

When we walked into the office building I saw all these models and some of them were looking kind of good. by the time that we made it to the right floor Tati was already asking for permission to go. I wasn't going to let her roll around the city knowing that the photographer's where crazier than ever here. So I told them to just wait until I was done and then we would have time to hang out and do whatever they wanted.