A Constellation of Thoughts

i cant think of titles

why do i still miss you? 

i still have every picture we took together. I have them all, a few are on my wall. 

but i can't put them away, i want to be with you. But i can't have you, and you'd never take me. 

god, what did i do for you to love me one day, and hate me the next? 

she really screwed me over, i thought she loved me, and the last month of that relationship was lies. She didn't want to be with me. 

why did i let myself believe her? this is why i got so anxious around you, because i felt you leaving, and i knew you didn't want to be with me, but i was happy with you so i made the choice to stay.

goodness, 

why won't you stay?