How I Felt

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by kindakenzi

by kindakenzi

I was afraid, and sad.

I felt like I deserved for you to leave.

Maybe I did, who knows?

You were all that I needed, and all that I didn't.

You were a 12 year old girl, incapable of loving someone because you couldn't even love yourself.

You tried saving you and me.

at the same time.

That was just enough for you to save me because if anyone on this world could do that,

deserves a metal.

choose one of your favorite color in which is now black because you told me you couldn't see the grey anymore.

It is all black and white to you.

you said i was the grey in the world, and you told me I could save the world with my smile if i wanted to.

You admired how my eyes glistened when i smiled.

You said I helped you stay alive, and messaged me on mothers day because you said you needed motivation for your mom.

and i said to you,

You are beautiful.

Your mom loves you and so do I.

She deserves a happy day and so do you, my love.

Little did I know in the next two months,

you wouldn't admire my eyes anymore.

You wouldn't say I was grey and could save the world anymore.

You couldn't say it, and honestly;

neither could I.

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Alright, my loves.

My name is Mackenzi.

Message me if you ever need ANYTHING. Okay?