A Constellation of Thoughts

more often then sometimes

More often then sometimes i end up in the deep end of the pool. 

I end up there because it reminds me that there's a lot of pressure on me, but if i keep swimming i'll get to the shallow end. 

I am one with water, especially the ocean because i have things with good intentions but bad doings inside me. 

The waves crash like my feelings, More Often Then Sometimes i end up not going into water because it reminds me too much of who and what i used to be. 

You see, my love, this is from you. 

This is what you created. 

I used to believe in angels, up until i woke up sobbing and went into my mom's room at 13 over a nightmare, and she said you'd be waiting there holding the gates. 

That year was awful. My grandmother told me i was going to Hell. 

And that' s when i stopped believing. 

I don't want to believe in something that doesn't include you.