Right after Luke dropped me off today, Matthew called and asked if I wanted to hang out with him. Despite the fact that I was completely pissed at him for ditching me, I agreed anyway. As I already assumed, Karter and Kyle had Ashton and Michael over, but however, they did spend good 25 minutes apologizing for leaving me alone but as always they made it seem like it’s my all my fault.
It’s about 10pm now and I’m lying on the floor of my room with Matthew and jamming to All Time Low.
‘’You used to wear braces’’ Now we were pretty much just going down the memory lane and bringing up some of the most embarrassing things from our childhoods.
‘’Geez, Matt. Thanks for pointing that out.’’ The slow melody of ‘Oh, Calamity!’ was filling the room and closed my eyes. This song was my absolute favorite.
‘’You looked kind of cute.’’ He said with a chuckle.
‘’Kind of?’’ I smiled even though my eyes will still shut. ‘Keep forgetting to remember ,where we've been is who we are.’. Who exactly am I then?
‘’You were always cute. You still are.’’ I opened my eyes just so I can see a huge grin on his face. Matthew used to have a crush on me when we were about 10. It was summer and my parents sent us to Gray’s for the whole holiday. It was that summer when they fought like crazy and ended up getting a divorce so I didn’t really mind not being home for a few months. Anyhow, Matthew and I met up in his elementary school’s playground and he brought me a rose. He asked me out but I simply rejected him and went to Payton Harrison’s house to play Wii with him. I really liked Payton Harrison, he had blue eyes and he used to carry skittles in his pocket so you could say that Payton was my first summer fling. When we got back to Africa, Matt called a few more times just to check how I was but that was pretty much it. After that we went to Australia only 2 more times and things were very awkward with him so I’m just glad we are okay now. I mean it was 7 years ago. He can’t hold it against me forever.
‘’So who drove you home?’’ He changed the subject, probably because he noticed the uncomfortable look on my face.
‘’Luke.’’ I replied simply.
‘’Luke who?’’
‘’Luke Hemmings.’’ Why does he care? He was the one who was supposed to take me home anyway.
‘’You shouldn’t be around him.’’ This made me shift to the side so I could face him.
‘’Why not?’’
‘’He’s no good Katherine’’ He sighed deeply.
‘’You can’t tell me what to do Matthew.’’ I hated when people told me what to do. And that pretty much has been my whole life. I have two overly protective brothers (even tho Kyle is younger and I should be the only protecting him) who literally never gave me any privacy or freedom whatsoever.
‘’I know I can’t. But take that as an advice. Luke Hemmings is a player. He will break your heart Katherine...’’ he looked at the floor. ‘’…and you don’t deserve to have your heart broken.’’
It’s 3am and I can’t sleep. Why would Matthew assume that I would fall for Luke and let him break my heart? Does he think that I’m that easy? The last boyfriend I had was 4 months ago and his name was Scott. He cheated on me with some cheerleading bimbo but I’m over it I guess. For first 2 weeks after the break up I was miserable. I cried all the time and I didn’t talk to anyone. But it wasn’t because I trusted him and he broke my heart, it was because he made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for him so he had to go and fuck some random slut. I mean was I that big of a bitch that he just couldn’t tell me that he is uninterested? Before Scott I was only with 2 more guys. Caspar and Andrew. I lost my virginity to Caspar but he moved to London like 4 days later and Andrew…well Andrew was my best friend and he needed to make his ex-girlfriend jealous so I went with it. We only kissed when she was around and it was really awkward because he was my best friend after all. Speaking of friends, I miss them a lot. I miss Grace and her annoying but really cute giggle and the way she talked about her favorite bands and the smile on her face when her boyfriend texted her. I just miss everything about her in general. I also miss Cara and her dumb obsession with One Direction and her enormous collection of converses. And I fucking miss Andrew and his retarded puns and I miss his British accent and the way he told us stories about UK and making it look like it’s some kind of Wonderland. I looked over to the clock. It was 3:16am. South Africa was about 9 hours behind Australia so it was midday in Johannesburg. I grabbed my phone and started typing in a new message for Grace.
‘I miss you’ I typed in, not sure should I send it or not. Instead of overthinking it as always I just pressed send. Not long after that I fell asleep, not waiting for the answer.
The rest of the week was rather boring. I had every first period with Luke and every time his eyes met mine, Matthew’s words echoed in my head ‘ He will break your heart Katherine ,and you don’t deserve to have your heart broken.’ The lunch period was same everyday, Robyn and Calum would talk about their date on Friday, Ashton would tell a funny joke which would make everyone choke out of laughter, Michael would complain about how he has to redye his hair and Kyle and Karter would talk about how great the colors of their hairs were. Kyle dyed his hair teal, which matched his gray eyes and Karter dyed it lilac which to be honest looked weird on him but I didn’t want to point that out. Me and Luke would talk about bands, because apparently we share interests in bands and Matthew would disappear and come back as soon as the lunch finishes
It was Friday and I was sitting in English. Luke was no were in sight and it was 15 minutes since the class started. The realization that he’s not coming today punched me in the face, I was quite sad and I didn’t know why. I didn’t want to be sad cause Luke wasn’t here for fuck’s sake. Mrs. Wills was talking about ‘The Great Gatsby’ but no one seem to pay attention to her, it was 8:15 in the morning after all. I started doodling flowers on my notebook. Apparently that’s the thing I do when I’m bored.
A loud noise from door slamming pulled me out of my artistic moment. Very tired looking Luke mumbled something into Mrs. Wills’ ear before he started marching to his usual seat in front of me.
‘’Morning, Africa.’’ His voice was raspy, his usually perfectly styled quiff was a mess and he also had large black bags under his eyes. Looks like someone didn’t get enough of sleep last night.
‘’Hey.’’ I said quietly.
‘’Are you going to the party tonight?’’ He yawned.
‘’No. I don’t do parties.’’ I don’t like parties, I don’t like being surrounded by drunk and high people and I personally don’t like getting drunk or high myself.
‘’Well you're doing them tonight.’’ His voice was now dominant, which amused me. I never seen this side of Luke before, and I would be lying if I said I didn’t like it.
‘’I’ll pick you up at 8. Wear something nice.’’ He winked and turned around. I wanted to protest, to tell him that I don’t want to go to a stupid party with him. I don’t even know whose party it was. But the voice inside of my head stopped me for saying anything.
I guess I’ll be going to the party with Luke Hemmings tonight.
A/N: THIS WAS REALLY BORING I'M SORRY THIS IS A FILLER CHAPTER IT'LL GET BETTER I PROMISE
again sorry for grammar and spelling mistakes i was to lazy to check it and i wrote it really quickly so dont judge ok xx
katarina.
