Accidentally

22: accidentally accepting

the idea of space sounded a lot cooler when I learned about it in freshman year science class.

This 'space' that I've come to know is a lot crueler; numbing almost.

it's been about a week since Wesley left for Europe. Yup, he actually left. And as if the aspect of him packing up and leaving like that wasn't enough, he left with Hailey. And we haven't spoken since our last phone call.

Misery. Would be the one word to describe how my life is right now.

Theres that saying 'you don't know what you have until it's gone' and I always thought it was stupid. But now I'm starting to realize how much I really loved Wes and only now when it's too late and he's gone.

And I never got the chance to tell him.

Part of me is mad at myself for that but I know I shouldn't be, I wasn't the one in the wrong here. He was.

It still was slightly heartwarming that every day the delivery man, who's name I discovered to be Todd, would still drop off my daily box of chocolate covered strawberries.

And I know that Wes probably had them on some type of pre order shipment or something but the fact that he didn't cancel it was like a very infinitesimally small glimmer of hope.

Hope that I should definitely let go of no mater how tiny it may be.

The only thing this 'space' has done for me is draw me to the conclusion that 'space' is such a dumb and stupid idea. I mean, do couples think being apart will automatically solve all there problems?

It's actually quite ridiculous how I ever thought leaving wes was going to make be closer to him, because now there's no getting him back.

I can only imagine how he's already moved on, he's got a much busier life ahead of him than relying on a nearly tear relationship with some girl back in his home town.

Especially when he's been travelling the globe with someone as beautiful as freaking Hailey Adams.

"Talia?"

I look up to see the familiar face that was Coles.

"Did I zone out again?"

I ask, feeling quite guilty since this wouldn't be the first time something like this has happened.

"Well the movie ended a good 10 minutes ago and you're the only one sitting in their seat still"

I look around the theatre to see they are in fact, correct. The theatre was empty and the only people left was the three of us.

"I like to stay and watch the credits...?"

I say unconvincingly. Laura gives me her knowing 'I'm so not having this' look.

I look over to see Cole put his arm around Laura. Oh yeah, they're finally dating.

After me and Laura had are small heart to heart, she went to talk to Cole after his football practice. She didn't tell me the specifics but apparently Cole did some romantic gesture that ended in him asking her out, and well, it worked.

As much as I wanted to be miserable, I couldn't help but marvel in the fact that my two best friends had finally ended up together, they were truly soulmates. And I don't want to say I told you so or anything, but I called this from the beginning.