B'shert

The way of the world

A/N:You know I had so fucking many authors notes to put on this while I was writing but now I can't remember a damn thing so :p Anyway, I dunno what the hell this is, I was just like 'the world needs more Damirae' and thus this-whatever this is was born. I don't mean to diss any of the ships mentioned here, in fact I ship all of them so I don't mean to...yeah u'll get it if you bother reading this. Anyway, please let me know what u think! (Aline if you read this, chances are you'll be very disappointed because it's fing OOC and cheesy.)

PLUS MORE IMPORTANTLY, I HAD TROUBLE FIGURING OUT HOW TO APPLY FONTS HERE SO STUFF THEY SAY IN THEIR HEADS IS SHOWN BY '....' k?:) (don't rely on the italics cuz I might have forgotten in some places)

(And also, originally this was a REALLY long one-shot but then I broke it into chapters.)

AND IT STARTS AGAIN...

Many magical beings have magical bonds. (Well actually everyone does but it doesn't really have a huge impact on you unless you're magical, because if you're not you will remain completely oblivious to the ties that bind everyone together.) Anyway, these bonds, they go left and right and up and down and sideways and range from mortal foes to friendships that transcend lifetimes to the other half of your soul. Some may never find any of their bond mates. Raven has found one, Jinx. The witch had turned out to be a very close and dear friend despite their stark opposite moral standings. And the two of them were strangely able to separate work from private life when they met up. Raven wishes things were different so that she wouldn't have to repeatedly help put lucky in jail but jinx is very understanding and holds no grudges. (This is a relief during the few meetings they have, rare as they are. But it's nice to know there's someone out there for you... this is not saying that her team, her FAMILY aren't there for her...but its different with a bond mate. She and jinx will meet again and again in each life time. She hopes that before her time in this body is up she can form many new bonds with her new friends so that that friendship and feelings of love and family can follow her from this life to the next)) (It's an obvious given that the titans know nothing- because let's face it they wouldn't be too pleased. She doesn't think they'll find out though because even Damian will have a problem keeping up with magic) But she digresses, the ways in which people realize and recognize such bonds vary. There are flash backs, headaches, a pull, a swap dreams and a seemingly never ending list.

But sometimes you can just tell when you touch their mind. So when Raven uses her magic to heal Damian and bring him back from the edge of death after the bloody idiot decided to pick a fight with the space bug she touches his mind. It's unintentional but unavoidable and you can imagine her shock when she finds that bird boy and her share a premonition bond. She can't identify the bond exactly but its strong and has so so much potential and it makes her dizzy and she has to concentrate real hard and focus on keeping him ALIVE. (In the end she collapses with exhaustion)

She doesn't know what kind of bond that was but later he tells her he saw into her head and she doesn't care at that moment if they have a bond or not. Damien isn't a magical and most people don't understand. So she shuts him out (it wasn't like they'd broken down major walls anyway)

But then for all his insufferable jerkishness Damian is really nice and she doesn't mean to feel it but she does. For a split second on that Ferris wheel on pier 64 they lock eyes and for that one second Raven has to physically restrain herself from giving into the pull. She looks away (as does he)There are so many walls and Raven wants to figure it out but then of course her father decodes to show up and ruin everything so she has to deal with that.

And afterwards, when she's wearing a gem imprisoning Satan on her forehead she can't really focus on much else because she's trying to learn how to tell her dad to shut the fuck up because there's only so much of his empty threats that can be considered amusing before they become old (and she maybe being a tiny bit overconfident but she's still riding on some sort of high) (She's knocked a notch or two when Trigon puts up a fight to get out and she ends up in the infirmary with the effort it took to lock him further in this jeweled prison) Everyone's very supportive, kind words and physical touches which all make her feel like home, make her feel like there's something to protect but also make her feel crushed under the pressure of being that PROTECTOR. Drown in the fear of all she has to lose. She appreciates everybody; really she does but sometimes she just needs Damian's silent support and his snarky dickishness to give her something to laugh about while she gets her shit together.

And then the months just pass and she's better at shutting her father out and there are nightmares but that's been a thing forever so whatever. But then one night the nightmares are different. It's not about Azarath turning to ash o of the land of hellish horrors that's he's had to call her home for years. Instead it was fire and a woman with familiar piercing green eyes and death and hurt because there was no love and anger and anger and sad, sad, sad. And she sees blood and -

She knows it was Damian and his emotions that bleed into her mind. He has no control and she doesn't know what to do. Which is probably why she forgets herself, why when she see's Damian at the tower a day or two later more closed off than he's been since he first joined the team she whispers that's she's sorry about his mom. This was a mistake. Because she's not supposed to know. Because Damian's a private person and Raven understands because so is she and he's never really appreciated people in his mind (as he's made explicitly clear.) And Raven mentally kicks herself because no she didn't mean to its just that with everything going on she kinda forgot that they have a bond-whatever type it maybe. But the cold glare the son of batman is giving her doesn't exactly make her feel more secure in explaining this so she just repeats and apology and flees into the shadows.

She puts up walls after that. Mental barriers because they may have a connection but not everyone is as open to that type of thing as she and jinx and she shouldn't have let it have gone unattended and growing but she forgot. But now that she remembers and it's probably immoral to leave that link open without Damians permission so she'll put it in a closet. (And hope that Damian forgives her for earlier because the thought that he won't leaves a strange hurt)

She knows that Damian isn't one to let others control his life, or to have his life decided for him so whatever their connection, when she works up the courage to tell him about It, she'll have to let him decide. (And she'll have to respect his decision. She will.)