B'shert

Is Having Feelings

So i'm not sure who's reading this, if its an ok story or if its total trash but I already wrote it. Like ALL of it, so i'm just gonna keep posting I guess? ...but please let me know what u think, I'd really like to know<3

Chapter Three

In the long run Damian knew he couldn't stay a kid forever but when his first (Late) growth spurt hits and his stupid voice cracks a bit and this joints start to ache and that shit starts he screams bloody murder and nearly beheads Tim for making fun of him and DOES behead every single training hologram the bat computer throws at him. (He has hell to pay when his body starts hurting all over and regrets it so so much afterwards though he'll never say it) (But yeah he'll listen to Alfred and ease into it) He mostly was at the manner but when he finally had to face the team he nearly kills Logan and Reyes too. But it was BEARABLE save for the stupid teenage hormones. Considering the fact that he was raised in the isolated mountains in Kathmandu by the league of assassins and basically molded into a living weapon Damian wasn't exactly normal. By no means was he ashamed of his heritage but his upbringing had proven to leave certain social skills to be desired.

So when he starts noticing Raven in WEIRD ways, like how those guys in movies notice pretty girls, it freaks him the hell out. Because it's RAVEN. Ravens a friend, possibly his best friend, she's like a sister. When he looks at her, even before this there's always been a strange sort of fondness which he's classifies as some sort of familial love (So he didn't feel that way exactly for Grayson, Drake, Gar or Jaime- so what they were all guys) )Ok so he didn't feel that way about Kori or Cassie, So what they were older?)So basically, she's Raven but she's also RAVEN. Before he maybe on occasion wanted to hug her (a secret he will take to his grave) but now, what freaks him out is how he wants to kiss her. It's not always an actual KISS but sometimes he thinks he'd just like to press his lips to her hairline and hold her hand. And that's what really scares him, the gentleness of such acts. The fondness and longing that they bring. It scares him because now only does he realize that he has a soft spot for Raven more so than the others. Now, with all these facts presented to him, a normal teenager would go into a few months of agonizing denial. But as previously stated; Damain is NOT a normal teenager.

He has a crush on Raven and it's a problem, a weakness, a liability. A compromise, not only as Robin but as Damian Wayne.

If we're being honest, the media and paparazzi has a problem keeping up with the Wayne family. When Dick first came along they were all over him and then Jason and Tim but then they kinda just lost track of everything. (Said children do not help ie: News headlines read 'does Bruce Wayne have a new Ward?' Dick posts a picture of Damian in the library his face obscured by shadows. ) But needless to say as a ward of Bruce freaking Wayne he garners much attention and has learned through experience that ordering a coffee from the girl at starbucks puts not only him but her as well in a tough situation. And he thinks that IF by some freak turn of events he DOES end up dating raven it would be hell for her and as a friend he doesn't want that. And ALSO, Bruce would probably kill him. Because Raven was a public hero, like Garfield. Her secret identity wasn't exactly a secret and with Dick already dating Kori if another Wayne ward started dating a member of that same team well...there were some pretty smart people out there and they could connect the dots.

So it's really not a surprise that he keeps this to himself.

But then Raven is kidnapped by some crazy who's going on an empathy collecting spree and her rooms a MESS with obvious signs of struggle and how the hell even did that guy get into Titans tower? How the fuck did he manage to get RAVEN?! He finds a book, lying open on her bed, she was probably writing in it before she was attacked and he doesn't mean to pry he really doesn't. In fact he's being completely honest with himself when he says that he was going to close the book and discreetly put it away so as not to arouse beast boys curiosity but then he sees his name.

Damian,

The towers kinda lonely without all of you guys around. I know you offered but Christmas and people aren't really for me. I know they're not really your thing either but they're your family. And I've gone through this a bunch of times before, almost every Christmas since forever but it's really lonely to not have an actual home. No one will ever read this if I have anything to say about it but I feel the strange need to keep repeating that it's not that I don't' consider this team my family....it's just that...I feel like a black sheep. And I also sometimes need a break from the contend dampening of our bond-

He stops reading but takes the book.

And they use and old friend of Nightwings, miss Martian to track that bastard down because while it would have been much easier had they not insisted that he remove the tracers that he had on them they did. And if he's a little harsher than their used to when expressing his displeasure at the situation he can't feel guilty because every minute they waste (which they could have avoided wasting had they just let him keep the damd tracers on them) is one in which raven could die But they get there in time. They rescue Raven and a bunch of other missing empaths and stop another psycho and then they go out for deli.

And then there's the book.