Notes From The Underground

CHAPTER TWELVE

In my, not at all, professional opinion, a mother is the closest thing to God a human may be. Only they can feel God's power in creating life. Only a mother know's what it is like to have children, to love something so unconditionally, so much. To want nothing to hurt them and yet have to watch them get hurt all their lives. To see their ups and downs, to be there through thick and thin. God is also known as the Father of the Universe. The all loving father.

Now some could be like me. Some could see this God as the great all loving faggot hater, or the omnipotent genocide maniac. While others, worship and adore this God. They go to church every Sunday, they pray before they eat, they pray before they sleep. They waste their lives away obeying a lord they cannot prove exists, all in fear of Hell. They waste away the good parts of life. 

Often times they are aware, yes they are aware of the fact that they would be much happier if they did not believe. Living in fear of God, makes life not worth living. Many things God frowns upon, are things that make life worth living. Leviticus 11:7-8: "And the pig, though he divide the hoof, and be cloven footed, yet he cheweth not the cud; He is unclean to you. Of their flesh shall ye not eat, and their carcass ye not touch; they are unclean to you."

Do you understand how good bacon is? If someone were to truly dedicate himself to God, they should not be allowed to cherry pick which part of the bible they follow. So, a true believer, would refuse to eat pork. How ridiculous right? I'm sure many of you have had bacon for breakfast, maybe a pork steak for dinner. So why do these people decide to miss out on the deliciousness of the deli aisle? They fear Hell. They fear death. 

1 Timothy 2:12- "I do not permit a woman to teach or to have authority over a man; she must be silent." If one were to follow this passage, they would be saved from Hell I'm sure. They're following all of God's word after all. Yet, this would mean any daughter or wife or aunt, mother or grandmother or niece, any woman this man may meet, he must treat as lesser than him. He must bring all woman he knows down to his feet, prove his dominance as a male, all in the name of God. A true follower of the Lord, would bring any and all women he knows below him, to keep them silent and prove only he is allowed to speak, they must follow and obey.

I find this one particularly ridiculous, since I do have a lady of my own you know. Sure, she might be becoming something I never wanted to end up with, and sure I may treat her like general shit, and yes I may be turning into someone I don't ever wanna meet face to face, but we're still together. Thus, she is still my lady. Now if I were to be a believer in the Lord, a true believer I mean, I would have to force my girlfriend, my fiance, my soon to be wife, to think and act as if she is below me.

Now my lady is carrying my flesh and blood child, who could have been a girl. Luckily, it is not. But if it was, and I was a true believer, I would have to do the same to my daughter. Keep her silent, never let them teach or yell or experience emotion other than obedience. I could never do that to my daughter, but some people can. Sad, is it not? I would have to degrade my daughter, my child. A piece of me, a piece of my soul. I would have to make her feel like she would never amount to as much as a man could, maybe even tell her I wished I had a son instead. I would never be able to do that to my child, not for any God. 

Same goes for how God was willing to sacrifice his child to help the world repent their sins. Even if my child wanted to, I would never allow them to die so someone else can have a reason to not feel guilty for the shit they've done. My child should not have to die just so everyone else can get a cop out. I wouldn't want my child to die so that child rapists, abusers, the filth of the earth could excuse their actions by praying to me.

 I would never want to meet a man willing to do all of that either. Let alone worship him. 

Leviticus 20:13- "If a male lies with male as with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination; They shall surely be put to death: Their blood is upon them." If I were to be a true believer, I would not be able to act on my attraction to guys. It is no surprise that yes, I have a fondness for sex with either gender.