Scarlet Curtis

Old Life

The Day After They Get Back...

I was in my room playing guitar and singing the song:

"Putting my defenses up
Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack

Never put my love out on the line
Never said yes to the right guy

Never had trouble getting what I want
But when it comes to you, I'm never good enough

When I don't care
I can play 'em like a Ken doll

Won't wash my hair
Then make 'em bounce like a basketball

But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels

Yeah you, make me so nervous
That I just can't hold your hand

You make me glow, but I cover up
Won't let it show, so I'm

Putting my defenses up
Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack [x3]

Never break a sweat for the other guys
When you come around, I get paralyzed

And every time I try to be myself
It comes out wrong like a cry for help

It's just not fair
Pain's more trouble than it all is worth
I gasp for air
It feels so good, but you know it hurts

But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear perfume

For you, make me so nervous
That I just can't hold your hand

You make me glow, but I cover up
Won't let it show, so I'm

Putting my defenses up
Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack [x3]

The feelings are lost in my lungs
They're burning, I'd rather be numb

And there's no one else to blame
So instead I'll take off in a run

I'm flying too close to the sun
And I'll burst into flames

You make me glow, but I cover up
Won't let it show, so I'm

Putting my defenses up
Cause I don't wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack [x2]

I think I'd have a heart attack [x4]"

I thought to myself it's all gone. I can never get it back. I looked up at the door to see Soda and smiled.

He said, "Beautiful song." I said, "Thanks, it was the song I was going to sing at the audition but we all know how that went."

He said, "Hey, just because you didn't get to preform doesn't mean Tulsa is that bad."

I said, "Tulsa is my home. It's where I belong where everything isn't perfect. I just miss my friends that's all."

He said, "Really? Is that all you miss? What about the school, I thought you really wanted to go."

I sighed and said, "Yeah, I did but after what had happened I'm ready to just stay here and maybe join Ponyboys school."

He said, "Where the socs are." I said, "Where the funs at." He smiled and said, "Well, I'm glad your trying to get over this incident."

I said, "Yeah me to. What are we going to do with the money from the voice though?"