The Only Alpha Luna

A Human Like Day

The rest of the day Tom is constantly on my mind, and I push him back again and again. Needing to be focused as I pay attention to the business' projections, finances, and the stack of papers containing all of my employees ideas for new products. As a wolf I hated being cooped up in this office one day a month, and the occasional few hours when I had an unavoidable meeting or an emergency here. Yet, my human self loved the little bit of normal she got, the little bit of relaxation that came with being in a quiet office with a skyline view of the Maine woods.

I occasionally get up to get coffee, but mostly sit at my desk and look at numbers. Sure enough business had improved by a good 15% margin since we started the advertisement of our recently launched product. Stocks were increasing in value, and even though I never let more than 20% of my stocks be owned by the public the 10% that were owned by retiree's were going to get an excellent deal when they sold theirs. By the time that all of the human business was taken care of I didn't have time to go to the grocery store since it was 9p. Wow, time flies, my human self thought while my wolf was itching to leave the office. I locked up the office and the secretary that always refused to leave until I did on the day that I showed up on time and left late to take care of everything, smiled up at me.

"How was your day sweetheart?" There was something about the woman that always made me feel safe with her around, but like everyone else I knew it was a false sense of security.

"It was good, here are the ideas that have received my approval, the budget approval for the month, and the amount of new employees I want hired by the end of the month to increase factory production, also the changes in benefits, severance, and retirement packages. If you need my help accomplishing anything that's on the list of things I want done by the first give me a call and I'll make sure to light a fire under everyone's ass." She chuckled as I gave her an artificial smile. I just wanted to go home, go to bed, and curl up next to that midnight wolf I hadn't been able to get off of my mind.

"I'll make sure it gets done, you have a meeting on ....." She named dates and times where I had unavoidable meetings that required my presence.

"Thank-you, see you then." I say making a mental note to myself that she deserved a raise. You're probably wondering why I need more people to increase factory production and it's because the younger generation is struggling to find jobs. So instead of becoming digital just yet I get the young people into the office or factory. I walk into the personal bathroom I have on the top floor just across from my office once the secretary has left, since I booted her out the door. I take off my clothes, and place them in the L.L Bean bag I have had for years. I shift into my wolf form, grab the backpack with my teeth. Glad that L.L Bean had expected or planned on pets with this model. It was 9:30p before I could leave due to the security cameras reboot at 9:30 and to be back on at 10p. It was a flaw in the system yet if I ever stayed this late and I didn't set it up the way I did I wouldn't get home until after midnight.

My wolf runs home wanting to go straight to bed, she's surprised to find that dinner has not been made and everyone is in the living room eating popcorn. I roll my eyes.

"Lucy," I hear Tom call my name but I went straight upstairs not wanting him to see my white wolf. The rarest color of our kind, and one of the hardest to keep clean. Yet, mine was pristine as usual since both my human and wolf self refused to be dirty when we might run into powerful wolves. I walk straight into my room, and into the bathroom making sure to close that door. I lock it too, knowing all too well that if it was Tom in here I would want to join him. Than I sit in front of the door with my wolf, crying. Crying because I didn't deserve him, he deserved someone so much better, someone with no past. A past that haunted her every day, a past that caused trust issues. I started crying for the first time in 10 years, my Alpha self, and the part that always felt as though there was something to prove. They finally broke down, over a man. One they had known for less than 24 hours yet had shown us nothing but kindness. He deserved the best of the best, and I wasn't it. "Lucy," Tom calls just outside of the door "please let me hold you, let me comfort you." It was a simple request but one I couldn't give into since my wolf wanted so much more, and so did my human self. It was getting harder and harder to stick around when he was doing nothing but showing them patience, and kindness. They were finally beginning to trust again, but I knew that they were going to get their hearts broken so I stayed put. Even though every time Tom repeated the word please, as though he was in more than just physical pain my heart broke just a little bit more.

I shifted and sighed, "There's a pair of..." I was still deciding if I wanted to tell him where my things were and how my closet was organized when I realized that if I didn't I would come out nude, or in the business clothes that I absolutely hated right now. "Underwear in the first drawer closest to the floor, just right of the door. There's a pair of PJ's in the last column on the left side of my closet on the back wall, there already organized just grab the top two from the same column inside of the drawer." I say looking up at the ceiling, mentally kicking myself for not just mind linking with him. Yet, that seemed as though it was an invasion of his privacy and my own. If I left my mind open just for a second to someone I didn't trust to not go rummaging through my head they could. They could find out how I ran my pack, how I was one of the richest Alpha's in the country, how I was feeling, and the biggest question of them all how was I a pack leader at such a young age? All good questions, all questions that would be answered at another time, at another place.