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Hot Topic

Tyler's POV

   We spent most of the day relaxing and going all over town. We were noticed by a couple of people. we took pictures and signed many different things. I love having this chance. Hardly anyone gets the chance to see people that love you and don't even know know you personally. It always makes me happy to see a fan. Soon Josh and I found ourselves looking around in a mall. The first place we went was Hot Topic to see everything they had. Right when we walked in the worker stopped everything she was doing and said "Omg it's actually them". The girl she was checking out turned around and just stared. Josh said "Guys you can stop staring at us *he pauses and chuckles* it's actually us, were here to buy our merch" right when he finished what he said I busted out laughing and so did they. Soon we noticed the girl that was being checked out was wearing some of our merch. We both went up to her. "Hey I'm going to get this for you" I said to her. "Thank you, I really appreciate it" she leans down and gives me a hug. She goes over to Josh and hugs him to. "He gives good hugs doesn't he?"  I asked her and she giggles and laughs. "Aww Ty you give better hugs" he says while planting a kiss on my forehead. The girl gets the biggest smile on her face "Joshler is real isn't it". We all break out laughing and Josh and I say "yes"at the exact same time.  I finished paying for the girls order and we took pictures, Josh and I also signed the receipt. We went to the back of the store where the band T-shirts were and grabbed two shirts in each band/singer in our sizes so we could match. I also got us cat ears because why not.

Josh's POV

   Tyler looked really happy today. I think he realized things will change and get better. We got a lot of T-shirts today. We might have also gotten cat ears. As we were checking out the cashier laughed when she got to the cat ears. "Wow, you guys are so cute" she said after giving us our receipt. We also took pictures with her to go on their Hot Topic page. As we were heading out I put the cat ears on Tyler. I proceeded to put mine on. He looked to cute I just wanted to kiss him. "Ty, do you ever notice how cute you are?" me saying that caught him off guard. "Um, no not really". I just looked down and shook my head. How couldn't he realize how freaking cute he is? I won't stop till I make him believe he is lovely. 

Tyler's POV 

   Josh caught me off guard by asking how I thought I looked. I wanted to say "yes I have noticed" but I don't think I ever will be able to. I could tell Josh was in deep thought after I answered. He kept pushing me back in the direction of the bus. When we got back he picked me up and sat me on the couch and went back and got my wheel chair. I felt really bad that he has to always keep going back and forth. He sat down next to me when he got back in. He grabbed my chin and made me look at him. "I will make you believe you are lovely" I smiled at that since that is an old lyric of mine. He then leaned in and kissed me. We held the kiss for a couple of minutes then released. "I love you Jish"... "I love you too, babe" Josh said back. I'm happier than usual but I can tell there is still something Josh is holding back. I hope he doesn't think the other night I really tried to kill myself over just his words. I don't want that to be in Josh's head. I would never want that/

SALUTATIONS frens sorry it took so long to write another chapter... I feel really bad. My good fren was put into the hospital so prayers go out to her. School has been a struggle lately especially with all the kids, none of them like me. I also am having some issues with thoughts and just being happy. I'm sorry if this shows in my writing I really want things to change and everything to be great and perfect but that won't happen. I love you please stay alive we need you. Sorry if there are mistakes in the chapter i'm so scattered its not even funny. Thank you for all the support. Again I love you, Stay alive ~Trash_Can