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Fair Night

Josh's POV

I looked down at my now white nails and looked at Tyler who was laying down beside me. He had a huge smile on his face and I was happy to see that after all drama that went down this morning. It's about five in the evening now but neither of us are hungry enough to go get food since we just ate pretty much the whole Taco Bell menu. Tyler's phone went off and I grabbed it for him I looked at the screen before handing to him and it was a number that looked familiar but I couldn't remember where it was from. It says "Hey it's been awhile I just wanted to ask are you better from what happened at the concert a while back". I handed it to Ty and his face had no expression as he was texting back. "Who is it?" I asked since he doesn't look too happy about texting them back, "oh it's just an old friend that I haven't talked to in a while". I shrugged it off like it was nothing until another text came back really fast. "I guess your old friend is really excited to talk to you again." I laughed. Tyler let out a slight nervous laugh, then sighed and started typing another reply. "Yeah, we use to be really close. Then we just sort of went different ways after a bit." Ty said putting down his phone. "Ah okay. That stinks. Hopefully, you guys will be able to see each other again soon!" I said messing up his hair a little bit, he laughed as another text sent. "I see they are really excited to talk to me again..." Ty spoke picking up his phone again. "Don't worry, I'll put it on silent for now." He told me as he put his phone on the floor, the screen facing down. "You didn't have to do that, Tyjo. I understand if people want to talk to you, I mean who wouldn't want to talk to you? You are adorable!" I told him as I kissed his forehead and he smiled at me. "I guess. I just don't really want to talk to them right now, they just sort of suddenly came back after a few years." Ty sighed. "That's understandable, I would do the same, Ty." "Yeah, thanks for understanding." Tyler sat up as he spoke and yawned. "You are tired already? You won't be able to go to bed early tonight because I have something planned!" I randomly made that up just so I would have more time awake to spend with Tyler. "Oh really?" He said excitedly. Of course, I don't but the words already came out so I have to say I am actually planning something. "Yes really. It's a secret too, so don't be asking what it is because I wouldn't tell you no matter what. It's a surprise!"

Tyler's POV

I heard my phone go off and Josh picked it up and then handed it to me. I looked at the number and I was regretting not changing my phone number. It was Jenna texting me asking if I was okay. Why would she care after our break up? Josh didn't make it better by saying who wouldn't want to text me because I'm "adorable" I hope she's not trying to work herself back into my life. She texted me one last time and it said she was in the same town I was in and we should meet up to get coffee. I didn't even want to text her back so I turned my phone on silent. It was a good thing I didn't open it up where it told her I read it. I yawned then Josh turned to me quickly " You are tired already? You won't be able to go to bed early tonight because I have something planned!" I kind of got really excited for tonight and couldn't wait to see what he had planned. "Oh really?" I said so he would tell me what we are doing. "Yes really. It's a secret to, so don't be asking what it is because I wouldn't tell you no matter what. It's a surprise!" I got even more anxious to know what we were doing when he said it was a surprise. This made forget all about the Jenna thing.

I sat at the front of the bus for a bit while Josh was looking at his phone. I looked over and he quickly flinched away so I wouldn't see. This made me give him a questioning face... "No looking at my phone remember secretsssss" Josh said to me carrying out the s. I busted out laughing either he doesn't have a clue what we are doing tonight or looking up something about what we are doing... or both. It was a bit confusing since I'm thinking it could be two things. I'm hoping he knows what we are doing, but at the same time if he doesn't I won't be mad at him or anything like that. I wonder what we are doing? It could be anything. Going to the movies, going to the park, but I guess it's a bit late to do that.. But I don't know, I'm not the one planning what we are doing. The bus ride wasn't the shortest, but at the same time wasn't long. It was about 25 minutes, to get close to where we were going or at least that's what Jish told me. It would be about a 14 minute walk to where we were going after we get off at where the bus stops. The bus arrived at the stop we needed to get off at, so we got off and started walking left. Josh took my hand and lead me down the sidewalk. We were going many different directions. We would go left, then right, then turn left again, then go diagonal, it was just crazy but worth it since I was with Josh. I'm still confused of where our destination was or what it was, I've been in this area before but it was only driving by. I checked my watch and it said the time was 7:27 PM, I could have probably guessed it was around 7 just by the sky. It was a bit darker than before but still bright enough. You could also see the pretty pinks, oranges, and purples along with the shades of blue and white in the sky. I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking because I was distracted by looking at the sky and figuring the different shades of colors in the sky, but I could hear Josh slightly kicking some rocks out of my way and also telling me if there was a crack or something where I could trip. I didn't notice us slowing down until I heard Josh speak, "We are here, Ty." When I looked down from the sky to see where we were at. I looked up to see bright colours and a bunch of rides and games. I was so happy I love small town fairs they are very cute and I haven't been to one in forever. Josh paid for our tickets in and we walked straight over to the Ferris wheel and there wasn't too long of a line probably because the fair opened not too long ago. We both sat down and got buckled in and the wheel started spinning. It was so pretty especially with the sunset. We got to the top and it stopped because they were loading more people at the bottom. I looked around and it was like a 360 sunset. Josh pulled out his phone to take a couple of selfies and i kissed his cheek in the first one and then the second I wrapped my arms around his neck. He kissed me on the mouth and put his phone away. "You are the cutest human being ever" he said to me and I busted out laughing "Ha no I am not, you are." before we got into a fight over this we started moving again. Josh put his arm around me and I cuddled him while we looked over the fair grounds. I will never forget this moment. Soon the ride stopped and we got off. "Do you want to go play some games Ty? It's on me" "Why would I say no... I know I won't win anything but it'll be really fun. We walked down past the games till I saw one I had a chance at. I finally came across one that I think I had a slight chance at. It was the one where you shot water into a target and the first horse to reach the end won. Josh and I were standing in the small line when I looked over and I saw a familiar face. I quickly looked away trying to hide my face. I hope she didn't see me. I quickly hugged Josh trying to hide my face even better but I don't think it worked. "Oh hey I didn't expect to see you guys here!" Josh looked over to see Jenna walking up with Debby and a couple of other girls behind them. "Oh hey you guys" Josh said a little reluctantly. Debby walked up to Josh and went for a hug and of course knowing him he was going to hug back. I hated to see it, I wanted to look away but I couldn't. I never wanted to see either of them again. Jenna then hugs me but I wanted it to be over very quickly. She kept holding on and I looked over at Josh and Debby was whispering something in his ear. What I saw brought back terrible memories. I wanted to run away somewhere far away from here. Why is Josh doing that? Why is he listening to her? He knows I'm right here and I can see. I stared at Josh for a minute to see if I could read his expression but I couldn't, it was completely blank. That's when I couldn't hold back any longer and ran. I ran far away from the group they have formed, and I tried to hide. I pushed past multiple people, and pushed my way through groups if there was no way to get past them. I could hear people talking about what the hell I'm doing, and some were questioning why was I running. I took myself to the sidewalk Josh and I walked along to get to the fair, and I tried to remember which way we came from but I couldn't remember because I wasn't paying attention. It was darker now, I'm guessing around 8:30 since it wasn't fully dark, there were still some shades of pink and orange in the sky. I ran and ran, but I still didn't recognize where I was. But I did find a bus stop that I could possibly take back to the tour bus, at least I'm hoping it can. So I waited, and waited. I could hear the slight sound of music coming from the fair, and I could also hear the slight yelling of my search group that has been sent after me. I was hoping the bus would come soon so the search group wouldn't find me. I don't want to be found, I want to stay lost right now. I may want to go back to the tour bus, but I want to be lost from the group, from Josh, from everyone right now. As I was thinking I could hear the breaks of the bus slowly stopping. I ran onto the bus and asked where the driver was going, he told me a few of the stops and the third one he said was the one near the tour bus. I told him I would get off at that one, he nodded as I sat down in one of the front seats. No one else was on the bus other than the driver, I wish the bus was empty though. But I knew I couldn't drive the bus so I accepted the driver and waited until he said we were at my stop. I thanked him and jumped down the stairs so I could get off quickly. I ran towards the direction of the tour bus. After a couple minutes of running I slowed down and walked onto the bus, panting as I opened the door and slammed the door behind me, locking it as I did. I didn't want anyone on or anyone to be able to get on. As I said I just want to be lost at the moment. I'm hoping I could have alone time for a while and I finally got it. I slowly walked to the back wishing everything would just stop. Wishing everyone would disappear and let me have time alone. I just wanted one good night with Josh no one but Josh. All I need is Josh. What did Debby say to him? Why was he hugging her for so long? Why didn't he pull away? Does he still love her? I can't take the thousands of questions my mind is throwing at me. I can't take the voices answering in the worst ways possible. I was walking over to the cabinet where I hid my new razors when my back pocket started to vibrate. I pulled out my phone, it was Josh calling me. I threw my phone down on the couch and completely forgot about it within moments. I had to jump up some to get the pack and it took a couple of times because I was still out of breath. I went to the bathroom and grabbed a towel and walked back to the back closing that door to and locking it just in case. I sat down in front of the and opened the new pack of razors. Knowing me I underestimated how sharp they would be so I accidentally made a deep cut. I didn't freak out I liked the feeling so I kept doing the same thing over and over. After about five minutes I was startled by loud banging and a couple of voices. I went up to get my phone and earbuds. I looked at my phone and It was blown up. I turned on do not disturb so nothing would go through to me. I put in my earbuds and started some music. One of the last texts I saw was "I'm getting mark he has a key if you are on the bus." After I read that text I quickly moved a few heavy things to block the door, because maybe the lock wouldn't be enough. I tried my best to stay away from the blade I used, but I can't help but to do more. I cleaned up the bit of blood on the floor and some on my thigh, even though the cuts from before were still bleeding a lot I still cleaned up some of the blood. I suddenly felt a slight shake from the bus, I guess they are in now. I quickly made more cuts and watched them as they bled, cleaning up some blood here and there. I heard more doors being hit, and I could hear Josh yelling at me. I couldn't really hear him because everything was dizzy so I wasn't really paying attention to him and I still had my earbuds in so that sort of blocked out most of the yelling. A few of the words I could hear were mostly just the words cut, blood, I'm sorry, and why. I didn't understand why he would say sorry, and why at the same time? It's like he was confused. He thought it was his fault, but then it's like he decided it wasn't and was asking why I would cut. At least that's what I'm guessing I heard from him yelling. I could feel the bus shake again, and I watched the door handle wiggle a bit. Good thing I locked that door. I think I will be safe for at least another half an hour, hopefully more though. But I guess for now I will lay down and watch the door handle shake back and forth endlessly, and sometimes the door trying to be pushed forward. I stared at the ceiling for a bit to till I heard a really loud thump. I looked and I saw he had the door cracked open but the dresser I put in the way was blocking him. Everything was really hard to comprehend so I just closed my eyes and laid my head back down on the floor. I had my arms out and blood was getting on the floor but I didn't have the strength to clean it up. I heard thumping on the ground and then I was scooped up by someone. I still had my eyes closed bc they were hard to keep open. I felt like a ton of people were staring at me and that gave me another reason to not open my eyes. The earbuds were yanked out of my ear and I heard Josh mumbling my name. He picked me up and brought me over to the couch. My shirt was now covered in blood. I could feel it soaking through. "Tyler are you okay, please say something open your eyes, anything" I started opening my eyes but someone had turned on the light so it felt like i was being blinded. I kept trying and finally Josh realized and told someone to turn off the light. Once they did I could open my eyes. He let out a sigh but I couldn't tell if he was mad or sad or what but then I thought about my razors. I had two in my hand so slowly stuffed then in between the cushions.Josh set me up some and then took the almost all bloody towel and started to dab it on my wrist. I put my head back and closed my eyes because I didn't want anything that was happening around me to be true. I started crying and I couldn't stop. I couldn't stop remembering Jenna and what happened between us, what Debby did to Josh and how broke he was, him hugging her. It was all a mess Josh then stopped and I opened my eyes some and I could see him telling them to get out of the room for a minute. He wiped my tears away. "Why did you run?" he asked me. Did he seriously have the guts to ask why? He should know damn well why, so I didn't respond and I let him think about it for a second. "Alright I know, and I'm sorry. I kept telling her to get away but she wouldn't. I didn't want to push her or anything because I know she would freak out and start up drama." I stayed silent and I looking at the ceiling. "Okay, fine stay silent. I don't care because I deserve it either way." I wanted to say he does, and I also want to say he doesn't, but I couldn't make any words come out so I just closed my eyes. Josh stayed silent along with me, then after a couple minutes of silence I finally decided to say something to break the silence, "So was that your surprise?" My voice cracked as I spoke. "No, this wasn't what I had planned. I wanted a nice night at the fair where we could just forget about everything except each other for a while. I didn't want this to happen and I never would. I didn't expect our ex's to be there, or be in town at all." Josh whispered to me just because I guess he figured he was being too loud. I nodded slightly hoping he would understand that I was trying to just say okay and nothing else, because okay was all I could think of right now. I think he did because he nodded also. He walked out of the room and I could hear him tell everyone to leave, and I'm happy he did that. All I wanted right now was just to be with Josh. He walked back in and sat down next to me, then put his arm around me and scooted me a bit closer to him. I was a bit achy but he made sure to try not to hurt me, and he didn't. We sat for a while longer until I heard someone at the front of the bus. Josh got up to go see who it was. He left the door open and I just laid there. I heard him whispering then reluctantly he said okay. I heard footsteps getting closer so I opened my eyes. It was Jenne and I looked away. "I know you probably hate me I just need to talk to you." I said nothing in response. "When I left you I wasn't thinking of our future I was thinking about me and I know I shouldn't have done that." "But you did" I said back mumbling. "I know I did and again I shouldn't have, I had no idea what I was doing back then." she said back followed by silence. "Okay let me cut the what I'm trying to say. I drove all the way here in hopes to see you again. I want a second chance... please give me one, I've changed." I slowly stood up to face her and I looked over my shoulder and Debby was forcing her lips onto Josh's but my mind went crazy and Josh was pulling away. I limped to the front of the bus because I was still in a lot of pain, Jenna following. "WHY ARE YOU KISSING HIM?" "WHY ARE YOU GUYS HERE?" I was yelling "I JUST WANT TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE!" Josh was staring at the ground wishing what just happened never happened. "NO JENNA I'M NOT GIVING YOU A SECOND CHANCE! DEBBY WHY ARE YOU KISSING MY BOYFRIEND! HE"S MINE NOT YOURS REMEMBER WHEN YOU BROKE HIS HEART THAT WAS YOUR LAST CHANCE GOT IT!" they both looked at us really confused. "You guys are dating?" Jenna said. "YES WE ARE AND NEITHER OF YOU CAN CHANGE THAT SO IF YOU COULD GET OUT THANK YOU!" They both turned quickly and got out. I collapsed into Josh's arms and he slowly lowered me onto the ground and then he walked to the bathroom and didn't come out for a while. I finally got up and knocked on the door and he opened the door and pulled me in. He kissed me really hard "I didn't want to kiss her I pulled away you saw didn't you?" "I saw that's why I yelled at her I don't hardly yell at people" he kissed me again, "Why does your breath smell like really strong mint?" Josh cracked a really big smile "I might have brushed my teeth and washed my face multiple times" I busted out laughing and he kissed me again "Okay let's get you cleaned up and bandaged" he said "Okay thank you Jish, I love you" "I love you too"

SALUTATIONS... I hope you guys like the extra long chapter. If you didn't I'm sorry it's going to be a while till Dani and I can update because school starts for me soon and she already started. Welp I'm not going to make this too long. Stay alive it is worth it and Dani and I will catch you in the next one baiiiii ~ Trash_Can't