Josh likes to bang on his drums
Josh likes to interact as much as he can with fans
but its different when the "bang" wasn't from his drums
And when the only interaction with him and the fans
was that they were both were screaming.
Trigger warnings w...
Josh and I cried on each others shoulders for a good amount of time, possibly half an hour? I was the first one to break up the hug and tear fest we had together. Josh pulled away and sat there with his hands covering his face shaking his head. "Josh I said it's o-" I was cut off by Josh's muffled yelling, "It's not fucking okay! It shouldn't have happened, we should have done something! We could have asked her to stay with us more or something! It's all my freaking fault." He finished with him sobbing in his hands. I was shocked, Josh never cussed. I mean never. "Josh this has happened before with other clique members, we couldn-" "God just shut up!" Josh growled, "Just be quiet! I know it happens all the time but this was different since we met her, she met us! We got to know her a tiny bit but from that tiny bit I could tell she has a good person! She came to comfort me when you got in the hospital, I should have been there for her! God I hate myself so much.." he finished his statement filled with anger with his voice trailing off.
Josh's POV
I shouldn't have done that, I made a huge mistake. I was almost screaming at Tyler. He never saw me like that until now. I could tell he was scared because I could see him shaking and scooting away from me. "Ty I'm sorry.. I should have done that, I'm just really upset." I waited a minute. He looked up at me, and I looked at him. As I looked at him, he flinched. He was really freaked out. He didn't say a word, I guess he is obeying what I yelled at him 'God shut up!' 'Just be quiet!'. I feel horrible for saying that to him. I keep saying that but I truly did, I just couldn't hold back my emotions. Ty was fidgeting with his fingers, just sort of rubbing them and moving them around. I hoped he would look up at me, but he never did. I scooted towards him so I could give him a hug, but as I got closer to him he started to stand up. I held my arms out towards him signaling I wanted a hug, but he looked frightened and ran to the bathroom. The bathroom lock clicked, great he locked the door. I stood up and walked towards the door listening.
Tyler's POV
Josh scared me so much I was to the point I was scared of him. I was shaking and my thighs were itching like heck. I knew Josh was at the door because I could see his shadow underneath the door. I usually check is anyone is outside the bathroom door by laying on the ground and search for a shadow or actual feet. I got up off the floor and quietly looked for something sharp. I looked everywhere for a razor, but I had no luck. I got angry, that usually happens when I can't find something to cut with. I get angry until I find something. I looked and looked until I found a piece of tile had broken off the wall. It probably wasn't sanitary but at this point I didn't care. I picked it up, but as I did I knocked the soap off of the sink and fell onto the floor. That's when I heard the door knob and heard Josh talking, "Tyler what are you doing in there? You can talk, I didn't mean what I said to you earlier about you to shut up." "Go away.." I mumbled at I sat on the side of the tub, my back leaning against the wall and my right leg extended across the remaining part of the tub. "Tyler Robert Joseph, I am not going away. Let me in." He said trying the door knob again which was a dumb move, not like I was going to unlock it for him to get in. I laughed at I reached over to the sink to clean off the tile a bit so it wasn't as bad. "Why is the water running?" I pulled the tile out from the water and turned off the sink. "Why would you care, you'd probably yell at me. Go away." I hissed towards the door. I heard something slide down it, I glanced at the bottom of the door to see a body which I am guessing it was Josh's. I wouldn't blame him if he gave up and didn't care anymore, if I were him and I had to get me out of this situation. I took the tile and started drawing lines across the lines I already have on my thigh. I kept doing it, but no color came out. I got mad and threw the tile on the floor. "Tyler what the heck was that? Are you okay?" "Yeah I'm fine." I growled at Josh. I could hear a sigh come from his body outside of the door. "Ty come out now. I'm not doing this with you." I picked something up and threw it at the door, Josh's body moved away from it after I threw it. "You are acting like a child!" He yelled. I started to shake again, not wanting a repeat of earlier. I fell off the side of the tub onto the floor, so I decided to lay there. But I wasn't there for long, because behind the toilet was a razor. I smiled and crawled over to it and took it in my hands. I guess Josh heard the sound of metal because he asked me about it, "What did I just hear? Why is there metal in there?" Josh said worriedly and knocked on the door. "It was just a toothbrush. That's usually is what is in a bathroom idiot. It's not a metal one either, it's plastic." "Yeah right. You better put down that blade right now." Josh stated banging on the door with his fist. "Make me." "Unlock the door." "No, why would I?" I laughed as I started using the blade. "Because you can stop for me, right?" "What if you're one of the reasons I'm doing this?" "I don't know." "Then why would I stop?" By this point there already 7 lines, with my favorite color at the time showing, red. "I don't know. Can you open the door?" "Soon." "Why not now?" "Because, why now?" "Using what I said back, cool." Josh said sarcastically. "I didn't say one word, the word not. I didn't repeat what you said." "Yeah, okay." He tried the door knob again, another dumb move. "Can you not try that? It won't work. You have to wait until later." I counted the lines, about 10 now. My vision is now starting to get hazy. "Worth a shot. I don't understand why you are doing this right now." "You act like you did nothing wrong. You act like you are the innocent one right now. Did you not hear yourself yelling? Or see me trying to get away from you?" "I said sorry." "Saying sorry is like trying to fix a broken window with tape. You can't see its brokenness but it's still there." I laughed as Josh didn't reply. There was silence from him so I decided to count how many lines there were now. "1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9-" "Ty what are you counting?" Oh so he finally spoke now that I am counting. "-10, 11, 12, 13, 14." I finished, my vision is now getting darker. "What the heck are you counting? Tell me!" "Goodbye." Is all I said to him. "Goodbye?" "Yes, goodbye." Those were my last words before blacking out and falling into the red tub.
Josh's POV
What, why was Tyler not responding? And why was he saying goodbye? "Ty what happened?" All there I heard was silence. Crap, I know what happened. Not again. I banged and banged on the door hoping to break it down, didn't work. So I started kicking it. Eventually it did break down, but I was to late. He already lost a lot of blood. I saw the lines on this thigh. So that's what he was counting, his cuts. This was all my fault, first Megan not Tyler I could lose him. I called 911 and told them to hurry up. And they did get here fast, but not fast enough for me. They took 5 minutes but I would rather not even a second for them to get here. This was Tyler's second time back and he wasn't even out for a full day. This was all my fault, all mine. I couldn't do anything but sit in the back of the ambulance with Tyler like the night he got shot. Why did I let this happen again.
A/N Salutations everybody! I know this chapter looks like Katie's layout for hers, but it's actually mine (Dani's/ssourbelts). I'm in the car rn going back home from the beach, and my grandpa turned his hotspot on so I could have wifi. But before I started writing my chapter here, I started in my notes and I can't bold or put stuff in the middle like here and I didn't feel like re writing everything because I had a lot done before he turned the hotspot on. Also, Tyler is back in the hospital! I feel bad but I'm not sure what else to write. This chapter is longer just bc I'm in the car and there is really nothing else to do but write, so I could have kept going but I didn't want Katie to not have anything to write lol. Oh yeah, you saw Megan died. That was Katie's idea, I have proof here from our skype conversation, it was actually pretty funny how she brought up the idea so I will put that screenshot at the end of this! Which is pretty much now lol. But that's all I have to say for now, stay alive frens! |-/
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