Married to a Monster

Six

Sunlight was pouring into your vision as you stiffly woke up. You had slept for what seemed like more than eight hours and your eyes hurt once you finally opened them. You rolled over on your side groaning when your eyes were met with the bright open windows.

Wait. You sat up quickly and saw that you were in the king-sized bed that adorned the room. How did you get here? You had remembered Minseok being over and you falling asleep on the couch, but how did you get to the bed? And who put you there? You looked down at the bare skin of your arms, wondering if you would have to burn it off if you found out that Kai had touched you.

"I'm sorry, it was the only way I knew to wake you," Kai said from behind you.

You looked over at the side of the bed that faced the window and to your relief, it seemed that he hadn't slept in the still made side of the bed. The sun was still streaming through the windows as your eyes met Kai's tall form that was standing nearby the window. You had to shade your eyes to properly see him. Of course the asshole looked handsome. His good looks used to faze you in the past, but thankfully, that was no more.

"Or you could have let me sleep," you mumbled, pulling yourself out of bed.

He ignored what you said, "Minseok was the one that put you in bed last night if you were wondering."

You felt butterflies at the mention of Minseok. You had enjoyed seeing him last night and while before you were going to try to move on from the boys, your marriage to Kai put a damper in the whole plan. Now, you would let Minseok back in – and of course Jongdae. After all, Minseok and Jongdae had a way of making you feel good and you could never forget your past now.

There were so many times they had held you and comforted you when you hadn't asked. There were times they had saved you when you hadn't asked. The two boys were like angels. And somehow they always seemed to know when you had hurt yourself.

The scars that littered your body were just that now. You wouldn't need the two boys to bandage you up and stay with you to keep you from inflicting harm. But emotionally, you still could use the love that they had always shown you. You hadn't had any friends since them as you had lost most of your friends after Hani's death. Not that you had many before then - it was always you, Hani, and Jongin against the world.

"That was nice of him," you said as you pulled a dress out of your suitcase that was now placed neatly by the bedside. You turned to go to the bathroom so you could shower, but Kai walking towards you stopped you.

It was almost impossible not to hiss at him as he approached you but thankfully he kept his distance. "I was thinking we could do something today?" He bit his lip nervously and stared at you with his dark eyes.

You automatically cringed away, "Why?"

That got him. He looked away from you and licked his lips before flicking his gaze back to you, "Just to have some fun, I mean this is supposed to be like a mini-vacation," he put his hands up and shrugged.

It felt weird to you. It felt weird to go from Kai being the mean and cold-hearted person he had become, to finally leaving you alone, and now being nice. Why was he being nice? You didn't want nice from him anymore. You didn't need it.

Sure, Kai had fucked you up and you were weak in the past, but you had spent two years building up your strength. Just because you cried from anger and frustration didn't mean you were any longer the weak girl you once were. You were broken in ways that wouldn't ever be repaired, but you had also healed up.

Hani's death still haunted you, but you tried to carry her with you in ways you knew she wanted. She never wanted your sadness and she sure as hell never wanted you to be weak. Hani protected you when you were younger and now that she wasn't here to do that, you had to do it yourself.