Beauty behind the magic

chapter 20 " open warfare"

TORI'S POV :

i felt my lip wobble as tears poured down my face. i had slapped him . and i didn't even regret it . "how dare you" i ground out , my hands shaking from rage and anxiety . he still held a palm against the cheek on which i had slapped him . his eyes had gone clear , like the darkness in him had dissapeared . 

"tori,i-" i cut him off , not caring that i was probably making a scene . not caring that i wasn't supposed to be doing this with him . not caring about the fact that my feelings were going to pour out of me like a never ending river. "save it " i bit out "why?! why did you act like you cared about me ? why did you act like you understood my reason for keeping my distance? why did you make me care about you if you were just going to tear me apart?!" i was yelling . i knew it , but i couldn't help it . "because i let go of the one thing that's worth it in my life and i see you latch onto logan woods of all goddamn people!" he yelled . i moved back like i'd been slapped.

the silence that followed was deafening . what was he saying? why didn't he like logan ? "what's your problem with logan?" i demanded . i felt like something was missing . like everyone but me knew an important piece of the puzzle that i was trying to put together . 

he sighed in response and took a seat on the stairwell nearby . i stood frozen before going and sitting next to him . "ashton?" i called . when he looked at me , i could tell whatever he was about to tell me was not easy for him to talk about . "a while back , i dated a girl named wendy. wendy parker" he began . 

i scrunched my eyebrows in confusion . we were supposed to be having a deep conversation about this matter and he brings up an ex? if we were going to talk about his exes , at least so far as the rumors go , we'd be here all day . i managed to drag my attention away from my roaming thoughts when i realized he was saying something again . 

"she was everything to me ' he continued . i shook my head "ok you know what-" i began standing up before i felt his hand on my leg ." hear me out" he said. something in his expression told me whatever it was , was not a joke . 

i sighed and sat back down . i looked at him and motioned for him to continue . "she was everything to me . i loved her . like actually loved her , with my entire heart .we dated for about eight months . One night , i went to a party . i asked her if she wanted to come with me , but when she said no , i went alone . i didn't even want to go to that stupid party . i just wanted to be home with her " he said ,sighing . he scrunched his eyebrows in a visible effort to continue . 

My hands itched to hold his . this was not easy for him . but i held strong . if i had to hear this out completely , i was going to have to wait . "i went to the party and went upstairs . i was walking around , bored out of my mind . the next thing i know i'm opening one of the bathrooms . and i find wendy , in a full on skimpy outfit , perched on logan's lap kissing him . " he finished . 

i was sure my mouth was hanging open . i could not process what he was saying . so ...the last and seemingly only girl he ever loved cheated on him ?! with the same guy i was with not ten minutes ago ?! 

oh my god , what the frickin hell?!

"as you can imagine , i was shattered . she tried to deny it , but i had seen it right there in front of me .i completely broke down , drank my weight in liquor , crashed my car into a pole " he continued , oblivious of my pale face . i had done this boy so wrong . he was so hurt . it would have killed him to see me with logan. it would have been like the past that hurt him and scarred him so much , came back to haunt him .

even before i realized what i was doing , my arms were around him . i felt his arms circle my waist as i buried my face in his neck . all the dried up tears resurfaced . "i'm so sorry" i whispered"i'm so so sorry" ."its not your fault , sweetheart" he whispered back , running his hands up and down my arms like i was the one who needed comfort.