Moving On

Chapter 10

This morning I rolled out of bed and started getting ready for school before anyone else even got up. I couldn't sleep much, especially not after midnight. Today was suppose to be my father's birthday. He would have been thirty eight today. I cried about an hour straight, but it didn't solve shit. I still can't wish him a happy birthday. I still can't hug him. I still can't tell him how I feel about all that's going on in my life.

All crying did was add on to the headache I had.

I put on my black leather jogging pants, a black shirt, and a jacket with black and gold on it to match my black and gold shoes.

I walked down the stairs, raking my fingers through my hair.

I laid on the couch with the TV on until Kathleen and Trevor came down the stairs. I didn't bother looking up to actually see them, but I can infer that it's them. Linda walked by a few minutes ago, the girls  are still sleep, and Katherine is probably getting ready for school.

"Good morning Kammie." They said in unison.

I didn't say anything back. Kathleen took it upon herself to come over and sit beside me.

"Are you going to school today? I'm sure you don't want to. You don't have to."

I sat up and turned the TV off.

"So even though I'm not sick you still won't make me go to school."

She nodded.

"Grow a fuckin' backbone Kathleen."

"I do have a backbone young lady. I just know that today might be a tough day for you. It's okay t-"

"Today just another day as far as I'm concerned Kathleen."

"No it isn't. Today is y-"

My jaw twitched. "I do not want to talk about it. Let it go."

"Fine Kameryn. You continue to be the miserable little girl that you are. All I was trying to do was... forget it."

"Cool, thanks."

She got up and walked away from me. I really don't give a fuck about her walking away from me. She'll just give up on me like Maxine did. People come and people go. It's life.

A few minutes later, Henry arrived at the house to take Katherine and I to school. I just have this wacky feeling that something will pop off today. Coming from where I'm from, I got used to that feeling.

I'm ready for whatever though.

"Good morning Kameryn." Stephanie greeted me as soon as I walked in the door. I'm surprised, at first she was talking to me like a friend, then she stopped for some reason.

She'll do the same thing this week too I guess. Just another thing I don't give any type of fuck about.

"Sup."

I could care less about whatever her response is, so I sat down and put my head on my desk until it was time for class to start. All we really did was go over the basic ass homework we had over the weekend. Since I already knew the shit I just put my head down and waited for the next class.

I felt like second period would be all awkward, but it wasn't. Tyree didn't even show up for whatever reason. Don't know, don't give a fuck. I'm glad he didn't, though, because I am sick of hearing him apologize for the billionth time. It's funny how right after someone does something wrong they apologize. That seems like the logical thing to do, but it's also the standard thing to do. Nine times out of ten, people only apologize to get back in the good graces of the one they messed up with. They don't actually mean it usually.