Moving On

Chapter 14

"Good morning Ms.Calhoun. Are you doing okay this morning? Welcome back."

As rude as it is, I completely ignored Mr.Hayes. With all the noise in the hall, maybe he'll just think that I couldn't hear him. Really, I just don't want to engage in a conversation with him.

I took my usual seat at the last lab table on the right side of the classroom. I like sitting in the back of the class. Less attention is drawn to me.

"Good morning Kameryn."

Stephanie came over and sat beside me with a smile on her face. Her smile went away suddenly.

"Are you okay? You seem... distraught."

I don't think I'd say distraught, but okay. If she knew what type of morning I had then she'd understand why I seem some type of way!

I woke up, laid out on a balcony with Kathleen crying and holding me. I've never had a heart attack, but if I had to imagine what one felt like, I'd describe the deep pain I felt in my chest. I have chest pains... but NOTHING like what I felt this morning.

Kathleen better be glad I fell out, because she'd be laid in someone's hospital if my anger would've took over my body.

Even though I went through all of that, I still cleaned myself up and got my ass to school. The last thing I need is to be by myself right now.

I just... If Kathleen knew she wanted to ho around with two muthafuckin' men then she should have made sure they wore protection. Why bring kids into the equation? Kathleen has a bunch of guilt to deal with. Whatever. She brought that on her own muthafuckin' self. Me, on the other hand, I have to deal with all the pain in my heart. I won't be able to handle the man who I admired and idolized my entire life not being my father.

As for the DNA test, Kathleen only wanted to test Trevor to see if he's my father or not. Fuck that shit. I want to know for sure who my father is. The only way that'd be possible is if she gets Trevor AND my grandmother tested. Either I'm taking my ass back to Georgia or my grandmother is coming over to Cali. Target or not, I'm okay with either one. I need to know the truth.

Oh, and she's just worrying about me getting a DNA test, but Katherine probably need one too. It ain't no tellin' how long Kathleen was fuckin' around with two men. She might not be Trevor's beloved, spoiled brat after all.

"Sorry for asking." Stephanie said with a frown on her face.

I shrugged. "It's okay." I put my head down on my book bag to let her no that I didn't feel like talking. I heard the stool beside me move, so maybe she went to her seat.

A few minutes later, I felt the soft touch of someone's hand rubbing my back. I turned my head and opened my eyes to see Tyree looking at me with a concerned look on his face.

"Are you okay?"

At least six people have asked me the same question in one morning. It's hellah annoying. If I say I'm not okay I guess they'll try and make it better. That's impossible.

I was about to answer his annoying question, but the bell rung.

Mr.Hayes came in the room and shut the door behind him.

"Alright class, by show of hands, which groups are finished with their project?"

Tyree was the only one that put his hand up. The project wasn't too difficult, and I emailed him all the research I had, so I already knew he wouldn't have a problem finishing it himself.

"Really? Only one group finished? Fine. You all have today, tomorrow, and Monday to finish the project. Presentations start Tuesday."

People started getting up and getting things they needed for their project. Mr.Hayes wanted to make absolute sure we were finished with our project, so he checked over it. He was all impressed and shit, so he told us that we could get started on the next assignment. Since it requires computers, he wrote us passes for the library. Even though he told us to come back before the end of class, I grabbed my book bag. My shit ain't finna come up missin'.

"Kam can we talk?"

I knew he wouldn't let us walk to the library in silence.

"We could, but I'd prefer not to."

"Kam come on. I'm being serious. We need to talk."

"Sounds like we talkin' already." I let out a deep sigh. "What is there to talk about Tyree? The awkward phone conversation we had? Mmm... yeah no, I'll pass."

He lightly grabbed my arm, causing us to stop.

"Kam why it gotta be weird? It didn't seem weird to me. All I did was apologize and tell you how I really feel about you. Nothin' weird about that in my opinion."

"I just said I'll pass on this conversation! But, why?! I'll tell you why. I've only been here for... like three weeks. Not even a whole month. How could you possibly 'love' me Tyree? I'm not exactly the 'loveable' type."

"I thought you said you didn't want to talk about it?"

I shot him a bird then started walking again. He chuckle then grabbed me again. "Okay. Okay. I'm sorry."

"Man whatever."

I snatched my arm from him then started walking.

"Wow. You've been hurt so many times that you can't believe that somebody would actually love you. Yeah you only been here for a few weeks, but you act like we only just met a few weeks ago. One of the main reasons I would be so excited to go to Georgia for the summer was so I could hang out with you. You, Vince, and I would have a lot of fun. I love you because of how you are. I like how you aren't super girly. You're real laid back and chill, when you aren't angry about something. I don't know what your circumstances are and why you had to move here, but I am glad that we've had the chance to spend more time together. I'd be like the luckiest guy ever to be able to call you my girl."

His version of 'lucky' and everyone else's must be entirely different. I don't know too many that would think that being with someone like me is a good thing.

He's said some sweet things to me, but that doesn't mean I should jump into his arms and kiss him. I still don't understand why he'd want to have me as a girlfriend.

After what Tristan did to me... I don't know. I don't feel like I could really let anyone else in as much as I let him in. He hurt me so badly. Tyree and Tristan are two different guys with two different traits and personalities. This I know. I also know that just because Tristan did me wrong it doesn't mean someone else will do me the exact same.

I took a deep breath then turned to Tyree. By now we were standing in front of the library.

"Right now... just isn't a good time for that. Please don't b-"

He leaned forward and kissed my head. "You have your doubts now, but if we are meant to be like I feel like we are, we'll be."

Why do I feel like this dude is just filling my head up with all the things he feels like I need to hear?

I already had too much on my mind, now I just have something else to clutter my thoughts. Great.