Insecurities

Not As Bad As You Think

Having walked out of school around 10 minutes ago, the pair were just outside Barry's apartment, walking into the building and up the many stairs, before finally reaching his apartment, both of the collapsing into the building, taking their shoes off, dropping their bags on the floor and moving over into the living room. Both had had an exhausting day, as well as not having any lessons together, so had been separated for a long time, too long for either's liking. Barry wondered into the kitchen to make a drink for the pair.

As he walked back into the living room with the drinks, he saw Caitlin lying down on the sofa, smiling as he walking in, budging up to give him some space.

"Thank you," she said cheerfully, as he sat down next to her, enjoying the feeling of her head on his shoulder.

"Hey Cait, there is something I want to talk to you about."

"Okay, what is it?"

"Basically, today I realised something. As the day was fairly dull, I had a lot of time to think, and I realised something big."

He stopped for a moment, taking a breath and taking hold of both of Caitlin's hands, looking her in the eyes before continuing.

"Basically I realised what I think you have been trying to tell me this whole time. Previously, I saw myself as an awful person. A failure. Someone who had messed up so many times that they didn't deserve anyone at this point. An outcast. I used to think those things about myself every day. However, the day I met you changed all of that. You were the first person to truly care about me, to be there for me, to be, well, at that point, my friend. You were there for me and that is more than I could ever ask, Cait. And more recently you have made me realise something else. I saw those things in myself because of the way everyone around me treated me, how they saw me. But the moment you came into my life, you changed all of that. You brought positivity to my life, someone who happily complimented me, saw some sort of good in me. Before I met you, I would've never spoken to anyone, never done any of the things I have done around you. But today, I gained something. A little bit of confidence in myself. You have truly shown me that I don't have to be just what everyone else calls me, what everyone else sees me as. I just need to be myself, the person that the people who care about me want to see in me, just who I naturally am, who I want to be. The people who care about me would care about me because of that. The person who cared about me is obviously you. You liked me for who I was, and that is genuinely incredible. No one has ever seen good in me before you. The people who don't like me just simply don't, and never will quite frankly, but I don't care about that because all that really matters is the people who mean something to me caring about me. You have shown me that there are people in this world who care about me, who I mean something to. That is such an incredible thing to be able to do to people, Cait. It really is. Thank you for everything you have ever done for me because it is so much more than you think it is.

Everything you have done for me, it is why I love you."

Barry finished, taking a deep breath after everything he had just said. He looked back into Caitlin's eyes, still holding on to her hands, to see her smiling out of control, speechless, a large, bright pink tone appearing on her cheeks, even a small tear of joy having formed in her eye.

"Barry... Thank you... Thank you so much," she stuttered, not being able to believe everything he had just said about her.

"I am pretty speechless right now, I really don't know what to say, especially after you have just said something as incredible as that. All I can say is that you have done similar things to me. You have made me see that there are positives in me, that I'm not as bad as I think. And Barry, you really are not as bad as you originally thought. You are incredible, Barry Allen," she smiled, looking up at Barry this time, seeing him to be the one to blush, smiling out of control.

"Cait, that's..."

He was silenced by Caitlin's lips, simply leaning forwards and meeting his, making him fall over on the sofa, Caitlin landing on top of him, their lips still interlocked. Barry pulled away or a second, speaking up before Caitlin could respond.

"One more thing first."

"Okay..." Caitlin said, sounding happy yet slightly annoyed at the same time. 

"I just wanted to take one more opportunity to thank you. You have done so much for me, and been the most amazing person towards me ever. Without you, I have no idea where I would be right now. The past few weeks with you, our relationship, it has been the literal best time of my life. Please believe that, Cait."

Caitlin was blushing again, with a glow appearing in her eyes, smiling yet again.

"Me too."

"I love you, Cait."

"I love you too."

Their lips met yet again, like the time before being able to physically feel the other smile as they kissed, this time not taking as long for it to turn into a make-out session, their tongues meeting, Caitlin playfully wrapping her legs around him, wrapping her arms around his neck as he picked her up, still kissing in the process. He walked over to the bedroom, laying down on the bed, their lips yet to part. Caitlin rolled over, placing her on top of Barry, removing his tie and unbuttoning his shirt, not wasting much time in the process. 

It didn't take long until the pair were entangled underneath the sheets, letting their joy and happiness take over their minds.

They had found each other in a world that displayed them as outcasts, but in an ironic, they couldn't be more perfect for each other.