Ambition: A BIGBANG Fanfiction

Chapter 5

Chapter 5: What A Fucking Day 

"H-H-hey" Seungri panted. As soon as Seungri had entered the room, he realized that he didn't have a plan. He was nervous.

"You need to listen to me, Jiyong." Seungri used his given name for emphasis. "I didn't RAPE anyone. Jesus... I couldn't ever..." The blond was struggling to vocalize his thoughts, but afraid that if he didn't continue, he'd be ordered out. "I was just trying to break the EXO kid to get information. Mino had looked up EXO's records and gave me the sister's name. It wasn't... like that..."

As Seungri rambled on, he slowly noticed GD's state. The man was lying on the bed, eyes red and shiny, with large dark circles under his eyes. Seungri expected GD to be looking at him with hatred, but it was only sadness he saw in those dark eyes. It was rare to see the man acting vulnerable, and it made Seungri feel strange.

Seungri's speech trailed off as he felt more and more uncomfortable. GD wasn't speaking, just quietly picking at the rip in his pants, clearly upset. Seungri watched in awkward silence, while GD contemplated his words.

Right when Seungri braced himself to begin another rush of explanations, the leader sighed and swung his legs over the side of the bed so that his feet rested on the ground. He was still wearing his tattered dress shirt from earlier and his old tattoos showed through the cracks as he rested his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands. "Why would Youngbae accuse you if he wasn't sure?" GD asked dejectedly, rubbing his hands over his eyes. "He doesn't make unfounded accusations. Something must have convinced him it was true."

"Look, I know. I don't get it either. I mean, it was obvious I was lying. I was playing off the kid's reactions. It doesn't make sense to me either... but it's the truth. I made it all up. You have to believe me. Plus, you already don't trust me. I know you don't. My every move is tracked and monitored and reported back to you. It would have taken a lot of time for me to evade security, procure drugs, drug a girl, bring her back to a room... and everything else. When would I have had the time to do that?"

Seungri could tell that his words were starting to get through. GD raised his head, obvious uncertainty in his eyes.

"Even so, why would you lie about something like that? There are better ways to interrogate, Seungri. Regardless, your actions are against the rules." GD had lost the edge in his voice, and Seungri could feel a grain of hope blooming.

Seungri once again opened his mouth to begin to defend himself, but GD held up a hand. "I don't want to hear it. You should go. I'll make a decision tomorrow once I've spoken to Youngbae again." Seungri supposed the conversation could have gone worse. He turned to leave when he spotted GD get up to pour himself a glass of scotch. The bottle glinted in the dim light of the bedroom, tempting Seungri to have a glass and forget his troubles.

"Fuck, GD, I know you're pissed, but can I have some of that?...I need it," admitted Seungri as he gazed at the liquor longingly. GD looked up at Seungri with a comical look of disbelief on his face at the younger man's audacity. Seungri didn't give a shit, he just needed a drink.

After a second of silence, GD snorted. "Only you would still ask me for something while being in this position," remarked GD, as he slid another glass over to pour some alcohol for the other man. Seungri beamed in victory and made his way over to grab the glass.

"Fuck, that's good," Seungri breathed after taking a hearty sip. He could feel GD staring at him as he drank from the glass, still unsure about the situation. Seungri could tell that the man was torn between wanting to remain punitive and wanting the whole ordeal to be over.

"To be honest, Ji, I haven't fucked anyone in three months and I definitely wouldn't have started by forcing some kid's random sister," Seungri admitted without thinking, fueled by the glass of liquid courage he'd just inhaled. GD immediately spit out the liquid in his mouth at Seungri's blunt words.