Ambition: A BIGBANG Fanfiction

Chapter 19

Chapter 19: Don't Kiss Him, You Hate Him

Fuck GD and his arrogance. It didn't even cross his mind that Seungri had a real problem with him that had nothing to do with his mother. He let out a chuckle, causing GD's eyes to darken even more. Good.

"You haven't even considered the possibility that this was my plan all along, have you? To seduce you and use it against you later." GD's eyes widened at Seungri's question. Of course he hadn't considered it.

"You were so easy," Seungri continued, "That first night, even with the possibility in your head that I had drugged and raped that girl, you responded to my touch like you were starved and I was the only food left on Earth. It was funny. There I was, thinking, 'Perfect. Now I can get myself out of trouble and use this to blackmail him later' and you thought that I actually wanted it. It was pathetic." This was partially true, at least. He had considered using their trysts to undermine GD's leadership position. After a beat of contemplating Seungri's words, GD smiled arrogantly. He didn't believe him.

GD's disbelief irritated Seungri and he pushed on. "You're a shitty leader, GD. You make unnecessary risks. You make too many mistakes. You let people die. I'm a hundred percent serious when I say that I've been trying to get you 'off the throne' for a long time now."

GD didn't budge, so Seungri decided to go in for the kill.

"Last night when we were together, all I could think about while suffering through the torture of you rutting on me, was that I was finally going to have the--"

"'Torture'. Ha. That's bullshit, Seungri. You begged me to keep going," GD challenged, his eyes spitting fire.

"Don't fucking interrupt me! I didn't enjoy it, I just suffered through it--"

"Stop fucking lying! Say what you want to the others, I don't care anymore, JUST DON'T LIE TO ME!" yelled GD, interrupting Seungri's posturing once again. At this point, GD began to struggle against Seungri's hold. The two men grappled for control of the situation, with GD trying to move Seungri's strong arm off his chest and Seungri trying to push GD back against the wall. Inexplicably, his traitorous body began to heat up at the feel of GD's body struggling against his own and he wanted to punch something. He must be insane.

"Admit it! You're a terrible fucking leader. I never wanted you--I just wanted you out of the leadership chair," Seungri ground out into GD's ear when he finally was able to secure him back against the cool stone wall. Somehow, after the fight and the hospital and everything, GD still smelled really good, like scotch and soap, and Seungri ground his teeth as he tried not to think about their proximity against the wall. GD shifted his leg slightly against Seungri's and a blush crept onto Seungri's face.

Abruptly, GD stopped struggling and all of the energy seemed to seep out of him at once. Seungri watched as the older man closed his eyes and leaned his head back against the wall, all signs of anger lifting from his face. When he opened his eyes again, they were clear and unreadable.

Seungri stared at GD, distracted by the enticing mix of his fierce yet delicate facial features. He didn't know how he had gone from not ever thinking about GD's appearance to never wanting to look at anything else. Had his lips always puffed out this much or were they swollen from the earlier fight?

"You know what, Seungri? I don't give a fuck. You become the leader from now on. I'm done with this shit," said GD tiredly, interrupting Seungri's stare. Seungri's breath hitched at the words he'd never expected to hear and he wasn't sure how to react. Both men were breathing hard and staring into each other's eyes, trying to read each other's thoughts. "If that's what you want, you got it. You can be the leader," GD added quietly, staring intently into Seungri's eyes. Normally GD was a fighter like him, always sharp with his words and fists, and having his acquiescence isn't what Seungri had intended.