Ambition: A BIGBANG Fanfiction

Chapter 10

Chapter 10: Teach the Kid a Lesson

"I spoke to Jiyong about M. How I think it would be dangerous if we continued the relationship," TOP conceded.

"And let me guess. Jiyong didn't like that because it doesn't fit in with his plans".

TOP shook his head. "He said that I meant everything to him... but the information that M gives us is 'invaluable' and I had to think of the greater good."

Seungri clicked his tongue again. "Ah. Let's just burn up all of our best soldiers and friends and just hope we can win the war then, hey?" Seungri stole a glance at TOP, realizing his words might be sinking in. "He doesn't really think of how it's affecting you, does he? He says the M missions are for the 'greater good', for the big picture, but M is the one who gained intel on our families' location. If you upset M in some way or if they, whoever it is, find out what you're up to... I don't want to think of what could happen". Seungri thought of his parents and fear, a foreign emotion, penetrated his body.

"I know this," TOP replied seriously, "That's why I talked to GD about it...." TOP looked at Seungri as if Seungri was daft. Seungri ignored him and continued.

"GD has done a good job so far and he's done the best he can BUT..."

"...I know," replied TOP, having filled in the rest of Seungri's sentence in his mind. Thank God Seungri wasn't the only one having these thoughts. Time to continue with his plan...

"Just... maybe..." Seungri had to be careful. He couldn't come on too strong. "Maybe...having one single person, who is under a lot of stress, understandably, be in control and calling all the important shots singlehandedly isn't the best thing..."

Seungri looked to TOP to see whether he'd said too much, but TOP was distracted, staring at the wine in his hand. He hadn't been listening to him at all. Damn.

"There something bothering you?" Seungri asked loudly to interrupt TOP's reverie.

TOP shifted his eyes quickly, his ears reddening slightly. "No, there isn't."

Seungri snorted. "TOP, you're acting like a five-year-old in trouble right now. What is it? I'm your friend. I want to help you".

TOP moved his gaze back to stare at the inside of his cup, the red wine swirling slightly as TOP tilted the glass around slowly. "I kissed Dae".

Seungri's eyes widened at the sudden confession. "What???"

TOP let out a weighty sigh. "I kissed Daesung. At a bar. And I haven't seen him since, and he hasn't talked to me, and I'm just scared I've screwed everything up." TOP set down his glass of wine before flopping back on the bed dramatically, clutching a pillow over his scarlet features.

Seungri took a moment, carefully weighing out what he wanted to express before taking a seat beside the older man. "TOP...I know you're in love with Daesung, and he's now aware of your feelings," Seungri started. "And that's scary for you, I'm sure, but it's also probably scary for Daesung. Everything you guys were, he's not sure of it anymore. He's probably looking back in his past to see what signs and signals he missed from you."

TOP sat up, still not maintaining eye contact as he picked up his wine again, draining it quickly.

Seungri progressed. "It's not impossible now to have a relationship with him. You guys either need to sit down and discuss where the relationship is at and what lies in the future..."

TOP glanced at him hopefully. "...Or?"

"Or..." Seungri stated contemplatively. "Or, you both get super drunk and admit your feelings and have drunk sex".