Ambition: A BIGBANG Fanfiction

Chapter 20

Chapter 20: Yes, Hello!

Heavy pants filled the room as neither man made a motion to move, afraid to break the spell of what had just transpired. What had just happened? GD asked himself in disbelief. His vision blurred slightly and hot tears stung the backs of his eyes, threatening to spill over. He shut his eyes tightly, before letting out a small cough. He had just had the hottest sex of his entire life, but now he was feeling uncomfortable as the sexual high was starting to wear off.

As the awkward silence dragged on, Seungri silently pulled himself out of GD, leaving him cold and a bit nauseous. He could feel Seungri's cum leaking out of him and he curled slightly in embarrassment, surrounded by the sticky fluid. The blond stood silently, making his way to the bathroom before shutting the door firmly. GD couldn't help it - his body winced at the sound. He was pretty sure he'd never been so pathetic in his life: naked, cold, bruised, curled up on the floor, trying not to get emotional.

Gathering whatever strength he had left, he ran a hand over his face and propped himself up when Seungri re-emerged clad in sweatpants, before getting a towel chucked at him.

"Here. To um....help with the clean-up." Seungri's eyes were red and he refused to meet GD's eyes as he spoke.

GD reached forward to grab the towel with his head down, feeling a small measure of gratitude. The action, by most people's standards, should have been considered derogatory, but at this point GD couldn't care. Wiping himself off, as well as any spillage, he tossed the towel into the garbage, certain that Seungri wouldn't want to have to launder it.

Slowly rising up from the floor, GD made his way over to the bed, grabbing his discarded clothes from the floor as he went. Feeling awkward in his nakedness, he hid himself under the covers, dressing in the awkward position as quickly as he could.

Once secured in the safety of the covers, he noticed that Seungri was still standing awkwardly in the middle of the room, unable to look him in the eye. Not that GD would have been able to meet his gaze either. GD couldn't help but reminisce about how different their time before had been - how their emotions were so raw, so real, and he felt his heart ache as he watched the younger man's discomfort.

Seungri grabbed a sweater that had been lying on the floor before joining GD on the bed, sitting as far away as he possibly could. GD scooted further under the covers, trying to create even more of a barrier between the two.

The awkward silence continued.

When neither had moved for a few beats, GD furrowed his brow, trying to think of something...anything to say.

"Seungri-"

"Ji-"

They both stopped, hesitant and curious to see what the other had to say.

Seungri turned slightly to him, acknowledging his presence. "Go ahead."

GD looked down, crunching his knees up to his chest.

"Um..."

What was he supposed to say? What on earth could possibly be voiced after that? He could feel anger, sorrow, and love mixing inside him and the stillness of the room hung over him like a thick curtain.

Seungri fiddled awkwardly with the sweater he had retrieved, having yet to dress himself with it, and GD cursed at himself for admiring the commander's muscular back and arms, despite everything.

"Well fuck, if you're not going to say anything I will," Seungri stated, bringing GD back to reality.

GD scrunched his face. "No, I want to say something first."