Bad Romance

Belair

As I waved goodbye to Aizen and headed for the school, I kept thinking about everything that's happened so far. It was as if I got tickets for a crazy train ride or something, I didn't feel like any of this was really real. Aizen. Kayden. They both seemed like an illusion right off the set of twilight or some romance/ drama movie. It almost made me seem insane. I walked into the school greeted by all of the school as usual before having to share my spotlight with that damn brat. Anyways, I didn't see Frankie or Kayden. Does he know? Maybe he hates me. "Sullen!" I exclaimed desperately as I pulled him over. "Lauren, is everything alright?Are you hurt?! Are you in trouble?! Yes I believe you!" Sullen said panicking frantically. "No, I had this huge fight with Frankie and now she isn't here and Kayden isn't either. Nobody has called me even once or was the slightest bit of concerned for me. Not to mention that I spent the night over this guys house I just met who's name is Aizen who apparently sees me at the park whenever I'm there. But he just so happened to be walking  by and he rescued me from the rain and I was so depressed and I had no one to turn to. I didn't return home or anything, what do I do?" I said without a single breath. Sullen looked like he was just catching up with me and gave me a look of concern and sympathy. "Lauren. Just have a normal talk with Frankie when you see her. Kayden I'm sure as hell doesn't hate you. He could never hate you, he spoils you for fuck's sake. As for the stranger named Aizen, well um just be careful with that guy. Don't get too close. The nice ones always tend to be the most vicious. All I can say is breath in between your sentences and stay calm and be confident in yourself and trust that things will be okay. Trust me. Trust me." Sullen said as he now had me at arms length with his hands holding my arms, while looking into my eyes intently with his hazel eyes. Sullen is like the anime characters who wears glasses but are really hot and don't talk a lot but who turns out to be really smart. Sullen is like Uryu Ishida from bleach. He has the same exact features and everything. He's just very timid and vulnerable unlike Uryu is.  "I trust you." I said nodding. Uryu- I mean Sullen is the person I go to when I need to talk . When I'm stuck in a situation I either jammed myself in or something I was pulled into. "Just take it easy. I know it wasn't your fault, Lauren. It couldn't have been." Sullen said hugging me softly. "Thank you." I said with a hopeful smile. "My pleasure now let's get to class." Sullen said walking with me. Boy was I glad to have met him. The classes went by pretty quickly and Sullen wanted to go out for some ice cream and go to the arcade and the movies since it was a Friday. Sullen is like my guardian angel, he always knows how to cheer me up.  I was so elated and relieved. We were heading over to his car when Frankie and Kayden came rushing over. "What hell were you thinking?! Leaving like that and not returning! Kayden and I went looking for you everywhere!" Frankie exclaimed loudly. Sullen and I exchanged the looks of why can't we just have a drama free day. "So now you give a damn. Oh wait it's just an act you put on in front of Kayden. I bet you made up some lie. Did you tell him why I didn't return, did you tell him why I left? I bet you made up a pity me story."I said  looking at Kayden who was now looking at Frankie with questioning eyes."Frankie,tell him. Go ahead."I said full of resentment and semi hatred. After Frankie reluctantly told him the truth, Kayden began to flip out on us both especially after hearing that I went off into the night with Aizen. After everyone was forgiven and talking again,we all went out for ice cream, movies, and the arcade. I had so much fun beating everyone's asses. After the arcade we went to the movies. They were filming the bye-bye man at the time, since we all have a scary movie fetish, we settled for that. I was so busy laughing at sullen and Kayden as they kept jumping out of their skin that I didn't realize that Frankie was shaking in her Steve maddens over to the left of me. "Guys you are all just being some pussies right now." I said as they all started laughing from noticing me watching them instead of the movie. "Shut up. " Frankie said to me. "Oh yeah, you were over there shaking in your Steve maddens." I teased. Frankie tackled me violently. "Hey! What the hell? Get off of me!"I exclaimed struggling under her grip. If its one thing you should know is that, Frankie and I endlessly fight as if we were really real sisters. Kayden or Sullen will always have to break us up. Like now. Sullen had Frankie's arms hoisted up over her head. Kayden had me straddled under his boy strength. We caused so much commotion and chaos that we had to outrun the security. "Bloody hell."Sullen swore under his breath. "You two are some serious sisters!"Kayden exclaimed as we drove up to the shake shack. It was super amazing. I got a cookie dough and eminem shake. While Kayden and Sullen had rocky road while Frankie had strawberry and  butter pecan.  "Wow. You two are just really out and wild aren't ya?" Kayden asked in a fake Southern accent. "You're so funny." I said laughing at Kayden. "While you're so adorable." Kayden said smirking at me. "Stop being flirting and get hitched already." Frankie said squealing. So Frankie has this thing with "shipping." She ships even the straightest guy and girls together. She's been constantly "shipping," Kayden and I. It really cute but weird. I hate it but I love it. I know you're confused and all but...it's complicated. "UUUUGGGHHHHH! Enough with the goddamn shipping, Frankie!" Kayden exclaimed as he blushed furiously all over the place and his pupils were dilated and sweet. "Kayden's got a crush!" Frankie said smiling. "Wow. Frankie just stop." I said getting irritated by the fact that she was bashing  him. "Shut up. He knows I'm bantering with him." Frankie said nudging me. "Stop means stop. Can't you see he's getting uncomfortable and upset? We didn't use this night to argue, fight, or bash each other." I said sighing in irritation. "She's right you know. Childish acts like this won't get any of us anywhere." Sullen said calmly and thoughtfully. "Okay...whatever." Frankie said facing the window. "What a day." I sighed leaning back into the seat. We were passing the park when I just happened to Aizen. "Stop!" I exclaimed suddenly. "What's wrong?" Sullen said turning around. "I just would like to be dropped off here. At the park. I need some time to breath." I said getting out. "I'll come." Kayden said. "No I just wanna be alone. "I said walking away. I know that hurt him because it hurt me too.  I walked over to Aizen who was staring deeply up into the night sky. " Star gazing again I see." I said as I came to sit beside him on the wooden bench. " I thought of you." Aizen said softly. "That is a really sweet thing to say to a girl like me." I said smiling abit. "Well, ever since you graced me with your presence I could only do just that." Aizen said in a as a matter of fact kind of way. "And why is that?" I said in a gentle voice. "It's because I'm hypnotized by your beauty and controlled by your presence." Aizen said smoothly. Is this guy serious? "How can you be so sure?" I asked. "It is what I believe in and what I feel." Aizen said smiling down at me. Aizen reminds me of Sosuke  Aizen from bleach when he's pretending to be nice to everyone, except this Aizen isn't pretending, at least I think he isn't. I kept Sullen's  warning of how nice people can be vicious and conniving. that scared me abit to know what Aizen could be capable of...truly. "Then you believe in love at first sight. Which is quite frankly due to calculations I've done in my head just now in these few moments we have shared together under the night sky." I said in a knowing kind of way. "Okay, I'll go with that."Aizen said chuckling softly as he squeezed my shoulder softly. I felt as if ocean had been the sky and it rained down on the two of us but never once wetting us and allowing us the be embraced by its beauty and majestic structure. I couldn't  believe that I was torn between the two Aizen and Kayden. A dilemma I wasn't looking forward to at all. Love isn't always fair...now is it? Guess not. "Then I'll go with that too. You are an interesting man."I said smiling softly. Aizen nodded and smiled back. "You know when two strangers meet, it's almost like fate pulls them two together."Aizen said drawing his index fingers together. "Yeah fate has a way with bringing two people together." I agreed with him. Just as Aizen was about to lean in to possibly kiss me, someone called my name. "Lauren! Lauren what are you still doing here?!" Kayden exclaimed. "Kayden? Kayden! What are you doing here?" I exclaimed "I came here looking for you." Kayden said looking at Aizen who was know standing up glaring at Kayden. "So, who are you?" Aizen said in a cold tone. He really started to sound like Sosuke Aizen. The true Aizen. "That isn't any of your god damn business, the question is who are you? What do you want from her, huh? You wanna get in her pants or something?" Kayden growled fiercely at him. The two were toe to toe now, things weren't looking so good. What the hell have I done? I would've thought they'd get along just fine...but I was wrong. Why did Aizen come off like that? I never ever have seen Kayden get so rattled up. Holy shit. The two of them just kept glaring at each other. "You maybe that type of guy, but I'm not. I just did a good deed while you just did nothing. If you are claiming to be her guardian angel or something special to her, then where were you when she needed you?" Aizen spat. Kayden was taken aback and shook up. A cold sweat had run down his back from the looks of  him. "I was always here. She knows that. You can't tell me anything about Lauren. Who are to know anything. You're just some guy she met at the park, what history do you two have?" Kayden said gaining his fire again. Aizen chuckled and shook his head. Who are these people? "Guys! Stop!" I shouted getting in between them. They both were taken aback and stepped away from each as they looked at me in shock. "Please, don't fight. I just really didn't know how to introduce the two of you to one another. I'm sorry you two had to meet like this...because of me." I said softing my voice in defeat. "Lauren please don't. Please don't be so hard on yourself." Aizen said softly. "You should be sorry. You should've just done that in the first place istead of not trusting me enough to tell me about this guy." Kayden said looking at me like I was one of those plastic girls in school, that was the last thing I wanted. I never imagined Kayden giving me that look....it hurt like...hell. "Kayden, I'm sorry. I just knew you would be so upset and now even more disgusted with me. I have no excuses for myself. I have nothing... to say." I said looking down and tearing up out of guilt and self hate.  I don't know why I've done this. I really messed up. I couldn't even look Kayden because I knew he was looking down at me with hellish eyes of fury. "You have nothing say?" Kayden asked me  in a harsh tone. "Nothing... I have nothing to say. All I can say is that I deserve to be punished for betraying you." I said sobbing. Then Aizen came over to me and wrapped me up in his arms and telling me that it was alright. "You're more so of the crime than the scene." Aizen growled at Kayden. Kayden just stood there looking at me breaking down.  "I'm sorry Kayden. Please." I said trying to hug him but he wouldn't let me. He denied me. The more he denied me, the more I realized that this wasn't my fault, because I wasn't hiding anything and I told him the truth about Aizen. He was just being a plan old dickhead. Let me rephrase that  he was being a stuck up royal sshole. So I back up from him and squared my shoulders wiping away my tears and fixing myself. I then  looked at Aizen and smiled greatful towards him because it seemed to me that he was the true friend after all. I then nodded to Kayden and walked off waving goodbye to Aizen. When I got home Frankie was already in bed and was watching adventure time. She loves those types of shows verses me the vampire and wolf lover. "You alright?"Frankie said getting up and looking into my eyes. I began to sob as if I were begging to be held. "Laur, what happened out ther?" Fankie asked as she held me tightly. "Everything." I said sobbing. "Wanna talk about?" Frankie asked with sincerity. "I just wanna go home." I said to her in between my sobbing. "We are home." Frankie whispered. "No we aren't. Mom and Dad would've been here. So don't tell me that lie, We're only 16 and we can barely fend for ourselves." I growled at her. It wasn't her fault. It wasn't. "I'm not really upset, it's because you're right. You were always right." Frankie said softly giving me my old stuffed bear she hid from me for years. "So you finally are giving Bear- Bear back." I said smiling abit. She nodded. "You need you're buddy badly." Frankie said wiping my tears with it's paws. Bear-bear was all I had. Bear-bear was always there when I had nowhere to go and no one to turn to. If only she were real. Maybe she could've convinced mom and dad to stay...with me. Just stay. I didn't realize that I was walking until the my bedroom door down the hall from Franke's hit me. I went into my room and closed the door. I began to put on my PJ's and lay down. The moment I laid on my back everthing just crashed down on me and the hell I 've ben running from caught up to me again. I wanted to scream but no one could hear me, not even Kayden..... can you hear me? Will you hear me? Please..... hear me.

                                                                           *NEXT DAY*

My heart was racing and I was covered in sweat. I didn't know where I was and I felt trapped and suffocated. I felt Claustrophobic like the wall began to close in on me. I needed to feel this, this is a sign. I just know it. My face began to form cuts and I began to stumble I felt weak and dead. I knew it was all over... I was going to die right then and there. "Lauren. Lauren are you alright?!" Kayden shouted as he walked into my room. Suddenly I was on the floor balled up in a ball. I got up and looked up at Kayden with shock and my eyes were full of fear. "What just happened?" I asked in a terrified whisper. Kayden shook his head. "I don't know. I just wanted to say that I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that to you. I  hate when I get that way... especially to someone who didn't deserve it. I'm so ashamed, I called in at the British Palace.... I'm going home." Kayden said sighing and looking at me. "I thought you were gonna stay here... I thought we were never gonna leave each other." I said nearly whimpering. "I need to clear my head. I need some new air." Kayden said looking  at me with deep stormy grey eyes. I couldn't believe what I had heard from my dearest bestfriend the last person I thought would walk away from me. In my weakest point. Do you really care? "Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face. Fresh out of Russia with your bronze hair in a perfect mess. The two of us in that classroom being each other's happiness for the time being. I never put in much thought about you leaving, until now. I'm sorry for hurting you, if I did anything to upset you. I don't want you to go." I said on my knees and crying at his feet."Lauren, please. It's for the best." Kayden said picking me up by my chin and kissing the corner of my mouth gently but for long. I should've known... the moment I said those word to Aizen that it would be for Kayden too. People like your are only temporary. "I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough." I said holding on to him tightly as he held on to me. "You were more than good enough. I wasn't good enough for you. I brought to tears over and over. I scarred you and I opened the wounds all over again." Kayden said looking into my eyes. "Please don't go." I whispered desperately into his ear. "I wanna make things right. I'm ashamed of myself and I can't bear to ruin your lie any further. Lauren, I need to figure out the mess I made and I need to figure out who I am. I need to figure out what I want. I just need to rehab myself for a while. Please understand, don't make it harder on me than it is." Kayden said cupping my cheek and looking into my glassy eyes. "I have no choice but to watch another walk away. This is a world of sacrifice. Never forget me and promise me you'll come back for me. One day." I said biting back my screams of rage. "I will never forget you. I will come for you, I swear it on my early grave and if I lie I will kill myself for hurting you even more. I love you, Lauren. See you later." Kayden said giving me one last kiss on the corner of my mouth. "See you soon." I said sorely and watched him walk away from me for good. What caused this earthquake? What caused this failure? What happened to the sun? Why isn't the moon shining down on my dark world? Why is this happening? Why? Why? Why?! Please just let this all be a nightmare and let me wake up at once!