elegantly wasted-h.s

s e v e n

chapter seven
as we entered my apartment i went to my medicine cabinet in the kitchen and took out my pills.abilify 5mg and welbutrin 300mg, i grappled some water from the tap and took them along with my gummy vitamin,preferably red.

"harry,that guy took a photo of us." i plopped down ok the couch as he came over and sat next to me.

"it's ok,it won't do much." he looked over his eyes always glimmered in the light and they had this effect on me that made me want to squeal.

"ok."i nodded hands in my lap,then came this awkward silence.i think we both wanted the same thing but only at this moment.only now.
i look led over to him eyes were digging into me and i started to feel that red black feeling again and the heat rose to my cheeks.

"the rain." harry said

i looked up i see him walking over to the big glass panes,and he placed his hand gently on them and continued to stare out into the rain.i got up and stood next to him.he looked over at me then down at my hand that was just chillin next to me.

please hold it please hold it

but he didn't

"do you wanna watch a movie?" i asked i'm so stupid let me just get that out there i could of said "hey wanna play twister" that would of been fun.

"yea of course." he smiled at me revealing his teeth,and the goddamn dimple that always caught me off guard.

"what do you wanna watch?" i questioned as we plopped back down on he couch once more.

"do you want to just search up romantic comedies on netflix and see what we find?"

"how about,10 things i hate about you." he looked at me puzzled and in confusion.

"rough." he said as i lightly punched his chest.

as the movie began to play i realized we forgot to get his car.

"HARRY" he jumped up and looked at me.

"we forgot to get your car..."he laughs his sweet laugh and shrugged.

"we can get it tomorrow."i smiled and un-paused the movie.

it was about four when the the movie ended and we sat on our phones for about an hour,

"hey tyler what's your instagram and twitter?" he looked up from his phone eyebrows raised to reveal a very silly look which caused me to laugh.

"tyles for both."

@harry_styles followed you
@harrystyles followed you

i looked up and smiled to see him smiling bacl at me.

by now it was about 5 and i was hungry as fuck,i went to my room changed into s different pair of shorts and a plain white tshirt so my black bra was slightly visible,but i didn't care.

as i got back into the kitchen harry was still resting on the couch and i began to make tacos.after i finished i set the table had let myself feel kinda proud of my organization,even though it took over an hour and a half to just make fucking tacos.

"harry do you want any tacos?" i look over and he's already halfway from the couch to the table.

by the time we finished eating it was around 8:30 since also made us both ice cream sundaes.

"so i was thinking,and it took a lot for me to ask you this but is there any chance i can crash here for a while.i don't really have anywhere to go in this area..." i bit my lip to contain a smile and nodded.

"yea you can sleep in the bed ill take the couch."

"no way you're taking the couch!" he retaliated.

"well then i'm forced to sleep in bed with you aren't i?" i had realized what i had just said same i felt every muscle in me tense up as he nodded and let a smirk loose,he walked behind me and then whispered in my ear,

"i guess you are."chills ran up my spine causing my breathing to speed up.

"harry styles are you flirting?" i said with a sarcastic tone.

"you wish." he said laughing.

i do wish.

[h a r r y]
yes i am
please just kiss me.

[t y l e r]
why won't he just kiss me?

as we walked into my bedroom he took his shirt off to reveal his toned chest,he climbed into bed with his pants on and with no shirt.i climbed in with my shorts and shirt same thing as before.i turned away from the way he was facing and i could feel his breath on my neck.

"tyler?" he asked,i turned my body to face his.

"can we cuddle,,,as friends." he made my heart swarm with butterflies then made my heart go cold.

"yea sure." i sounded emotionless,i was so lost.

he motioned for me to move closer so i did,he wrapped his arms around me as my head was against his chest as i inhaled his scent warming my body.his arms wrapped around me making me feel even more at home.and soon after that i drifted off.

as i woke up i found my body alone,once again i sit hear contemplating what i could of done to make him leave.

as i entered the living room i saw harry dancing and singing to stockholm syndrome,i didn't want to interrupt his little dance party so i just stood in the hallway separating the living room from the bedroom,then he turned around to dance and sing and saw me in the doorway.

he ran up to me and grabbed my hands as the song changed to they don't know about us,and sang it in my direction as i laughed my ass off.

"i just wanna tell the world you're mine,girl."

i can't help wish this was what he actually felt.

"they don't know about us"

as the song came to and end he swept me to the side so he was holding me and his eyes were staring deep into mine.his smile,god that smile.his hand went to cup my cheek and i let myself snuggle my face into his hand.he carefully sat us down on the floor with out taking a single finger off of me.he sat and he just smiled and looked into my eyes.

"harry?" i asked as he moved his eyes to my lips.

"what is this?" he smiled reaching my eyes again.

"i'll show you."