Call Me Zero [Completed]

37: What did I ever do to you?!

As the winter break got closer and closer, the harder it was to get out of bed.

Three more weeks, I thought, then you can sleep for two weeks straight.

Funny how the day the author was writing this on the first day of her summer break.

As I got out of my bed, I looked outside of my window to see that it was still dark. This was one of the things I hated when the winter months sets in. It was already 6am but it was still dark as night outside. It was like the sky trying to fool all of us students to go back to sleep.

And don't even get me started on the daily savings time. I mean, I love how I got to sleep an extra hour but I thought that it made it harder to wake up in the spring.

Anyway, mom was home today. I wasn't telling her yet about me and Maven. It was almost a week now and even I was surprised that it lasted this long. Because I mean, I survived being in a relationship for a week. I think I did great.

I felt bad for still not telling mom. I don't know. I just couldn't. I hated keeping secrets from her and this one is killing me. I don't know why I didn't want to tell her just yet. I mean, mom knew Maven. I have nothing to be scared of. I'm sure she'd say yes but I didn't think that my fear of her disapproving was the problem.

I don't know what my problem was yet but I was sure I'd figure it out.

I dragged myself out of my house and into Maven's car to go to school at about 7:30. The school wasn't that far but I always wanted to get there early.

"Woke up on the wrong side of the bed?" Maven asked as I rode in the passenger's seat.

"I mean, it's Monday. This is normal." I explained my lack of excitement of going to school.

"Alright then," Maven said as he started driving the car.

We drove in silence. I always did the talking anyway and I was in a bad mood today so that explained it.

There wasn't anything different for the first two periods. I stopped expecting for something magical to happen in my classes anyway.

I sometimes wished that I was Princess. Everyone remember her?

She used to study in private schools her whole life. And when she was in third grade, she only had three classmates and they were all boys. And boys were all new to her since she was new to that school and she came from an all-girls school.

I just sometimes wonder how exciting her life might be. But then again, we can't just judge how people's lives were going.

Not that my life hadn't been exciting. This year was really surreal and we were barely halfway through ending it.

And I kind of wanted to fast forward everything at this point. I wanted to fast forward my life to where everything was back to normal. Right now, I was happy. But, with Marge barely talking to me and Maven? I felt like I just tore apart a friendship that was the strongest for the longest time.

And Phillip not being here made it worse. I couldn't stop thinking that he'd leave us too. He didn't have a reason to leave before and I felt like he fully supported me and Maven but, that was before this Marge situation.

Speaking of Phillip, after second hour, I went to the restroom. Now, I know that I promised that I will never ever purposely eavesdrop ever again.