Call Me Zero [Completed]

43: No. It's not!

I was still on bed, even when the sun was already high up in the sky and it was a Monday. Thanfully, I was already on break so I'd be saying goodbye to waking up early for a two weeks atleast.

I had plans for today. Later this afternoon, I was meeting Maven at the park. I guess I was just waiting for time to pass until I finally had something to do. Mostly, I was preparing myself for what I was going to do.

When the time finally came, I dressed up warm and took the longest walk to the city park. Once I've arrived, I scanned the place to look for Maven. And there I saw him, sitting on one of the benches.

I walked through the children playing on the playground and the parents standing aside as they watched over their kids.

I took a seat by Maven's side and immediately didn't know what to say. I felt like we already both knew what was going to happen but we just didn't know how to start it.

"We're breaking alot of hearts, Mr. Maven Knight." I told him without looking as his eyes but finally finding my voice. We just sat there on the bench where I first said yes to him.

I knew that with all this, Marge must be the one who was having the toughest time. I've seen them talk behind my back a few times already and I knew what they must be talking about. Marge's expressions gave it away and it was something that I didn't want to see and for her to feel.

"I know. That includes ourselves, Ms. Angelica Turner." Maven leaned forward, his elbows on his knees and his hands folded. That just confirmed that he did have feelings for Marge and that he knew what I felt for Phillip.

What was wrong with us? I thought that we were a good match. We practically liked the same things and yet, we were like a puzzle piece that wouldn't fit correctly.

That's when I broke. I quietly sobbed. My eyes looked up to the sky to avoid anymore tears. This was more painful than I expected.

I finally had what I wanted. All those years of watching him from afar and now he was within my reach, and suddenly I didn't want it anymore.

Maven Knight. My best friend. My first crush.

I was about to lose him. But, I know for sure that I wouldn't lose my best friend. He was the person I could talk to about being a doctor. We treasured the same people and aspired the same things in life. I knew that we would get along better if we didn't have this kind of relationship.

Maven turned his head to look at me as I wiped off my tears.

He sat straight and tilted his body towards me. He wrapped his arms around me. All attempts to not cry were now all washed away because of how I really broke down on Maven's chest.

I clutch his shirt as I let all the tears out. I didn't want to do this to him. And I was sure he felt the same with how he held me gently.

"I'm sorry," I cried. Maven rubbed my back.

"I'm sorry too." Maven hugged me tighter.

I knew that he was not the right person for me but it was so much painful than I've ever imagined.

I wanted to let him go. But part of me wants to hold on. And, yes. I totally will hold on. I couldn't ever let go all of him.

"How bad is it that we started and ended a relationship in the same bench?" Maven asked.

I laughed through my tears and pulled away from him. I used my wrist to wipe my eyes and inhaled. I exhaled with the heavy feeling on my chest coming out with it.

"Probably historical." I responded.

This felt more like it. I had a light feelings inside me and I was glad that the two of us were already laughing about it. I was scared that it'd be awkward between us at first.