Call Me Zero [Completed]

35: Dating who now?

This morning Maven picked me up and drove me to school. I tried not to think about how we both were in a relationship and that Maven was my boyfriend but I just couldn't. I wanted to be comfortable and just treat him how I always did but everything felt like it was the first time.

I mean, it is my first time being in a relationship but I felt like it was also the first time that I got to talk to Maven. The first time I met him. The first time I saw him.

It all felt so new.

I tried to open up to him while at his car.

"You know, I've had a crush on you since seventh grade," I said this with an embarrassed smile on my face.

Maven looked at me quickly then brought his eyes back on the road. "I've always thought that you had. But I wasn't sure then since I barely knew you."

I was smilling so hard my cheeks hurt. I bit my lip and gave out a shaky sigh. It was about time he knew. I couldn't help but let out a laugh. It's still hard to wrap my head around everything that was happening.

The rest of the ride we drove in silence. I realized soon enough that this wasn't the type of "Phillip's Awkwardness" kind of silence but a really different one. I couldn't just break it by asking Maven why he's so awkward because. . . because I didn't know how he would respond. Or how he would even take it. Because obviously I'll mean it as a joke but, I didn't know how Maven would take it.

Funny how I thought I knew Maven already. And how sometimes I think that Phillip and Maven were so similar when I watched them from afar before.

And now that I've told him about how I felt for him all those years just made things worse. I didn't know why I was making this such a big deal when it really shouldn't be.

Was it just because this was my first relationship that's why I was freaking out so much? Why was I even comparing him to Phillip? I mean, Maven was perfect!

Is it possible that a person could be so perfect to the point where it's just uncomfortable to be around them?

Why do I feel like I'm looking for something that Maven doesn't have?

Oh my gosh. Phillip was right. I should really stop thinking. I was already doubting this whole thing and it was just the first day.

I asked Maven to park a little bit further away from the school. The memory of Lexi telling me that the other kids thought that I was just using the three of them suddenly came back to me. I didn't want it to become worse if they knew that I was dating Maven now.

"I don't know. I guess I just am used to walking to school," I lied when Maven asked why. "And besides, a good morning exercise won't kill anyone. Most of the time.

"That's why we have PE every day." He rebutted.

"Pleaasseee?" I begged him.

His shoulders finally slumped and he gave in. We parked near the school, but not in the parking lot. I've asked him to go in first and he said yes without a fight. We promised to see each other at lunch but we always do anyway so that's nothing new.

About five minutes after Maven left I started walking to school too.

I wasn't telling Eve about me and Maven yet so, I decided that first hour might be a good time to inform her about my life.

"Psst," I whispered. Eve was sitting in front of me. "Hey."

She didn't respond. So, I pulled her hair that was on my table a little.

"Eve," I called again. This time she turned back to me with a glare.

"What do you want? I'm trying to study!" She hissed. I leaned forward so that I'm sure only she can hear.