Players Girl

Chapter 9: Emotional roller coaster

"Look bitch, this is a warning got it?" He spat down at me as I clutched my stomach. I was leaning against the locker as he grabbed my hair, "got it?!"

"I got it," I looked up at him as his smile was super wide. We were on the other side of the school where there was the teachers break period. He let go and left me as I dragged my body down the locker. He only punched me in the stomach and I didn't feel like fighting. 

"Okay, I have a change of clothes," I didn't move and I let out a huff. Then I felt the tears coming, and I let them. I don't cry but my hormones were crazy and everything Chloe said was true. 

"Who are you without your twin? Who would want to be friends with you?"

Answer was simple, not that I wanted it to be but it was. I was a nobody, I was just another girl caught up in her own selfishness to realize it. The way those boys looked at Natalie made my heart melt. They weren't looking at her like she was a piece of meat, but like she was untouchable. My brother was obviously whipped for her, but I don't know. I want someone to look at me like that, and she got three just walking into the room. Tony did just look at her like a piece of meat so he doesn't count. 

"Hey," I heard someone next to me slid down the locker. I ignored them and kept on crying, I knew better then to hold it in. Whenever I did that, I became the heartless bitch. I was a virgin but I sure as hell knew exactly how to act to get people thinking that I slept with everyone. I guess it was my own fault for not having people look at me like that. I was just selfish and wanted attention on me instead of my brother all the time. Now I see why he gets the show light, it's because he's practically perfect. I was just the bystander that wanted everything to happen at the snap of my finger. 

I felt a hand brush fallen hair out of my face and I turned away, I needed them to go away so I could self pity.  Ya I know, me being selfish, what a shocker. However, I needed to just cry so I could walk back in that room without wanting to run out. 

"Look at me," I heard Mathew speak to me and I shook my head. I just wanted him to leave, I just wanted him and everyone else to leave me. Not for self pity but so that I could be the person I would be without Mathew, a loner. He grabbed my shoulder and he pulled me into him, I tried pushing against him but my strength was gone. I finally rested my head on his shoulder as tears kept strolling down my face. I let my legs go up against the lockers so that I was comfortable.

"What happened? And who did it?" I could Mathew trying to sound sad but it just came out angry. Sadly his anger melted into my skin, but the tears came out faster and it went away. I had my eyes closed the whole time and I never made noises when I cried, I just let tears stroll down my face. I shook my head to let him know I wasn't going to tell him. He grabbed my shoulders and pushed me off of him. I leaned against the locker and took deep long breaths, the tears stopped and I thought about how mad Alyssa was going to be. Not that she would notice when Natalie was around, she didn't need anyone to be beautiful. It shown through her sweater and shorts, which is saying something. 

"Please go away," I just needed some time to clean up.

"No," it startled me to hear Nick's voice. I felt even more embarrassed, what if everyone was here? That meant Natalie was here, and the selfish part of me wanted to die right there and than.

"Fine," it came out harsher then I intended and I got made at myself. I opened my eyes where all I could see was the floor and began walking towards the closest bathroom.

"Malia. Malia Reece," Mathew spat at me. 

"Mathew I will be back I swear," I pushed myself into the bathroom. I looked up to see I was alone and went to the same mirror I saw yesterday before school started. My cat eyes was running down the side of my face and my dress was a little crinkly, but it didn't matter.