Players Girl

Chapter 44: Ah Yes

We walked into art laughing about something when I noticed some people who are normally here were missing. Such as Shay, Alex, Brittany, Alyssa, Jordan, and Mathew. 

"Where did my brother go?" I sat a crossed from Mason and Aiden as they shared a glance. 

"I have to go," Mason's face hardened as he read a text off of his phone. 

"Where? Is it to meet up with everyone else?" I looked over at Aiden since Mason was ignoring me. 

"Look, not everything is your damn business," Aiden was on his phone to. 

"Are you leaving too?" I frowned when I saw Conner walk in.

"I don't know yet Malia," he sounded super frustrated. What was with this class and Mason and Aiden getting all pissed off. I thought all the secrets were behind us but I guess not. I guess we both have our secrets, which I wasn't sure if that was a bad or good thing. 

"Is she already pissing people off? Well that is surprise, I mean look at you," his eyes looked at me up and down. "I saw Mason looked really mad as he stormed off, was that you too?"

Mason was mad? Oh god he doesn't know, he can't find out from someone else. This was mine to tell and for no one to twist up. 

"Why do you looked so confused?" Conner smirked his blue eyes finding mine. 

I stood up I was so confused and Conner was twisting up my mind. Did he know something I didn't? He's only been here a day and he already knows more?! Oh I need to get air, he always does this! God I just got my anxiety attacks under control and I feel it coming. The room was spinning and I wasn't even sure where I was walking, let alone walking straight. My breathing hitched in my throat as I saw the doors for the field. I think I heard someone calling my name but my chest was tightening up. I need air and god damn I needed it right now, okay Malia almost there.

I opened the door and the cold air whipped around me causing my hair to blow everywhere. I started counting and breathing, just like Conner taught me. God everything goes back to that idiot!

"Malia!" I leaned against the tree trying to remember the numbers and when to inhale. I knew not to go down or less air would go out of my lungs. I was so focused on all of this stupid shit I didn't feel my anxiety levels sky rocketing. 

"Hey, okay Malia you are safe I promise. Now look around, find five things that you can see, than four things you can touch, three things you can hear, two tings you can smell, and one thing you can taste." I started listing off everything that he said until my lungs started working again. It was hurting so bad that I fell against the tree and held onto my sides looking down and the snow. 

"Hey I know I am not the person you want to see or talk to but I know that walk. Are you okay?" I looked up to see Conner's blue eyes studying me. I didn't have the energy to fight anymore and he was right I wanted someone else. 

"No," I wasn't going to lie either. "Thanks for helping me though." 

"Ya no problem, I thought you didn't have anxiety attacks anymore," he sighed. 

"I haven't had them since the last time you saw it, that's why it took my by surprise."

"What the hell happened?" Aiden came outside his voice visible from the cold outside. 

"She had an anxiety attack," Conner took a step back. "And no problem but you need to watch it Malia."

"Ya I know, I forgot that they hurt like a bitch though," I was so grateful for air. 

"You have anxiety? Anything else you have that the group should know about?" And angry confused Aiden was back everybody!

"Why should me having anxiety affect any of you?" I laid my head against my legs.