waiting for the right moment

chapter six

Battle

    So many teenagers don’t know how to feel, or how to act with what they feel. To start with, love isn’t forbidden. No religion forbids love it only guides you through it. It protects you from going into mistakes and trusting the wrong ones, it cherishes love the right way. It shows you the way you should treat people and the way you should be treated. All religions protect you from humiliation among your society. If you love her/him treat each other the right way. Both lovers should care about each other, but you shouldn’t lose yourself to find someone else. You love, but you are also capable of loving yourself the way you love another person. Damn it you may get a lot of judgments on how selfish you are but it’s not true, giving yourself time and to care for yourself is an act of self love. Yet, we all know many stories that we heard about broken teenagers, many films about happily ever afters, but in the life we’re living you choose how to live it. Broken or Happy?

    The days of the week passed by, and each one had its own story.

DAY ONE was going well, us best friends studying together like old days but this didn’t last long we weren’t capable of keeping our feelings away. We both knew it was wrong, but what was it for us? We didn’t know what to do, we were lost.

DAY TWO was full of happiness as I remember we were getting along and we were starting to get used to it. Aiden wouldn’t stop with his compliments to get me to blush. I didn’t stop teasing him about Molley, and he wouldn’t stop getting me jealous of Savanna.

DAY THREE, this was the day were all the promises were made, all the love you and all about our future was placed and settled.

Waiting for each other and protecting each other as we discussed. Though, I was a foolish teenager not knowing how to act with my feelings. Yes, I was a no secret keeper when it comes to mom. Simply, my mother isn’t just my parent she is my friend too, and she’s the one that I can take advices from. I’m a person that doesn’t think by mind I have always followed my heart. I kind of exploded with all my feelings towards him that day, and he did too. We just exploded and all the things people feel was said…

“I love you too.” I replied

“You’re my everything; I can’t imagine life without you. You changed me to the good that I thought I will never be. You make me happy my precious one, I promise ill wait for you Sue.” He said.
“Yes, I’ll wait for you I promise too. And you are also precious to me I’m in a good state for once in my life were I don’t care about anything. I’m in a stage where I’m relaxed, fearless, and ready to face life.” I replied.
"You'll be mine, if not now...oneday."
"I just don't know what to do, yes Aiden you give me feelings I've never had before, and yes i love it, i love how I'm capable to feel now after him, after he destroyed me."
" we dont want to talk about him okay? He was just a phase Sue. Your cousin was just a phase."
DAY FOUR the day all the shit had happened. It was Sunday I still remember a week has gone well for us and it couldn’t just to be disturbed by my actions. What should I do if I’m a person that can’t be quiet about what’s happening with her?  So you’re here now wondering what happened right? Yeah so much did. Well my parents knew and due to me not telling them early enough before acting I had been punished. No more tutoring center, no more telephone, and especially no more talking to him. So yeah what was promised was destroyed. It was destroyed to him but never to me. Messages were deprived and I was obliged to act that this person is a stranger to me when he never were. How can you get back to being strangers with someone that has seen your soul? It is too complicated, but I guess it wasn’t for him. Savanna was there after all and I wasn’t. I suffered a lot for a month especially when I got to see him every day but can’t talk to him, he seemed happy opposite to me. I kept to my promises and I just forgot about my feelings, or tried to I guess.  
I actaully never knew what he did, how he felt, or what he lived. I guess I only had false expectations.