waiting for the right moment

chapter twelve

29/12/2016

  Today I woke up with less pain, I felt like I’m on my journey in moving on… I came out of bed, took a hot shower, and dressed up to go to my class. When I arrived all my friends were there and him as well. We all had breakfast with each other with the cake that I’ve baked.

     After a lot of joking, they all went… because of gentle man kind he is, he helped clean up just as our past friendship days. We got into Math class and it gone well, he sat beside me this time and we solved.

     As we were solving he showed Malissa a quote and then he showed it to me. It was something he wrote about love a long time ago (as he says).

  And I showed him a quote… a quote I wrote, a quote from my dairy about him. Zoe got angry with me and I had to chase her. I can’t lose her because simply she is part of my soul. We got into a fight. I came into the kitchen and I broke, shivered and hit the walls. After I’ve calmed down. I had to apologize to him, I did so and he told me it’s nothing unless I’m not okay. He made me smile he always does though. We continued our day normally. Savannah came and he ignored me once she was here. I don’t know what was that but if it ever happens again I won’t keep quiet because I’m not his escape.

     I came home too tired, but happy with myself that I’m trying to move on finally.

   I can’t deny that I still have feelings for him, it is not that easy but it will be by time.

   “If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes. Only then you will realize how special you are to me.”

   I wish I could offer this, everyone wish they could see themselves from another one’s perspective. Him …If he could see himself from my perspective he’ll take care of himself more, he’ll see how particular he is to me. He healed me and still he does… he’s my precious one, the kind of medicine that god gives us in the shape of human beings.