waiting for the right moment

chapter eight

Christmas break

It is Christmas break now, the kind were we get ten days off to have fun. I’m sitting in my class in the center waiting for the teacher to arrive when a boy with tight jeans enters through the door. The most irritating thing for me is to see a boy wearing girls’ clothes or tight jeans or acting like he is one of the girls. Looking up from my seat I find Aiden there with his tight black jeans standing in the doorway swaying back and forth. It’s been one month without me talking to him and it feels so awkward…

  I’ve been suffering for a couple of days with anxiety and over thinking. I had no sleep nights for about two days because my fears kicked back into my life and made me a weak person once again. I had pale skin from not eating too much and dark spots under my eyes. So he is my only hope I thought. And like that I thought id have a comment…

  “what the hell are you wearing?!” I said.

   “black jeans” he replied and got out.

   After going through my lessons, I had a feeling that I did something wrong in humiliating him about his jeans, so I had to apologize. I asked my friend Malissa who is also a friend of Aiden to call him to come over so I could apologize. She did.

“I’m sorry” I said.

“ it’s nothing really Sue” he replied..

"For sure?"
"Yeah"
"I really didn't mean to."
"Sue dont overthink it."
  My parents were late once again in picking me up, so we all sat together laughing.
I went back home worried about what’s going to happen to me this night with my fears, what new thoughts are going to kick in and is it going to be hard today? While I was lost with my thoughts, my phone lighted up from a message from Malissa, I wasn’t excited until I read what is it about, it held the following chat between her and Aiden.

   “ I want to tell you something.” Aiden said.

“ yeah im listening.” She texted back.

“when Sue apologized today I remembered how much we were close, I know now that she hates me but I would love to return back to friends with her.”

“ yeah, but it doesn’t matter she doesn't hate you she never did.”

“ so can you ask her if she wants to because maybe she wouldn’t like.”

“ but you have to talk to her everyday so you both can be friends again, and I will ask her right now.”

“the problem is that she blocked me a long time ago..”

“ oh-uhh”

“so, yeah I said I have no one other than Malissa to help me.”

“ hahaha I’m going to ask her right away.”

So Malissa came and asked me, and she kind of copy pasted my message to him so we can chat like that.

“first of all I don’t hate you, if I hated you I wouldn’t even talk to you or even sit in the same room. I don’t hate you because I don’t hate anyone and yes we could be friends.” I said.

“ I remembered everything today, how much we had fun and laugh a lot when we were friends and I so love to return back to this.” He replied

“ we can be friends, we can laugh all of us but we can’t talk or chat alone.” I was obliged to say this…

“ okay that is all I want.”

This following conversation was between Malissa and Aiden.

“Sue now sent me that she is so happy because she doesn’t like anyone hating her.” Malissa said.

“ I never hated her not in the least bit because she did nothing to me.” He replied.

“ I’m sorry if I hurt you once by saying something and I’m sorry about Laurence I shouldn’t have done it.” I said.

  Like a teen I had to do something about my ex’s girlfriend. I was so curious about the girl he chose over me and I wanted to know how she looks like. I had Aiden instagram’s password, well lucky me I guess. I got into his account and started searching in his chat. After sometime, I finally found her. A girl with long hair, brown eyes, and so cheerful. I read some messages and from that I knew she was totally on the edge for him. She was in love and from his replies he didn’t offer her anything. It was so obvious he doesn’t feel anything for this girl.

  Aiden had his status as “waiting for the right moment.” And I was totally confused… what does that mean? Is it for me? What is he trying to do?

 “Waiting for the right moment”

  Everyone has a right moment in their lives, the moment were everything feels right and in place. My right moment was to be reunited with Aiden, I always had hope that one day we could be…

   Like this everything returned back to normal state and everything was fine. I slept well that night because I had something to make me happy and let me forget my over thinking. I always thought of him as a blessing and it turned out that he is. We are friends now and a couple of days passed by… now ill leave you with my dairy.