waiting for the right moment

chapter four

Paradise

   I reached out for the only person no one could have thought I would. Between me and myself I didn't hate him I only felt curiosity about who is he, why is he so high. He helped me get away from Molley, he told him to back off and to give me space I felt as if he's my warrior, I felt safe, and all I could think about is that I started feeling again.

  We all know how teenagers act, and I was a mad one. Like normal people we started chatting, once a day, two times a day, then all day. I somehow got addicted to that person; Aiden. Our friendship was priceless, we had this strong bond, the same personalities, and the same need to be strong. Aiden was one of a kind to me, he still is. From the day I called him for help he was there, he took care of me and then I started to heal. It was a true friendship, everybody hated us for the way we bonded and been together, everyone criticized us but still we had this thing, we were Aiden and Sue.

  The first day of our friendship is still like a memory in my mind. Physics class was boring back then, we stayed together and studied. We took our first photo, snapchat filters and they were quite funny. After a while Molley started getting jealous of Aiden, and I as well was getting jealous of Savanna.

  Savanna is the type of girl which seeks attention and nourishes from it. Boys were all over her, we all know why, though Aiden wasn't this type of a guy I thought he is. He was different, he takes care and respects any female friend he has. I knew Savanna and how she was so I constantly tried to open Aiden's eyes on who she was. That was hard, but he did back away from her at the end. That was the first time I knew a trait that was within me, jealousy. His jealousy was the kind of the cute way, those red cheeks and fired eyes that only saw red when someone tries to mess with me.

  DAY TWO was better, I stayed with him all day at the tutoring center. He still didn't know my flows, my attacks, and my fears. Over thinking that day killed all the life I had in me, I was drowning and my thoughts were so fogged. He was the only one there while I was having an attack, and he was the first to ever help me. After six years of psychology I only needed one person, sometimes I wish I had met him earlier before all of this happened. On this day I told him about my fears, the way I got them and the way I take medicine to help me. Yes, he was the  first person I opened up to him widely. He assured the intake of my medicine and every now and then looked up to check on me while we were studying. I still remember that day, it was in math class.

  DAY THREE was so special to me. That day I got something special, a small thing that held my happiness together. A bracelet with a marine sign, colored black, blue, red, and yellow. We had matching bracelets, it was my first time. I think our friendship was full of firsts.

  Well all the days were like too beautiful to be true. Aiden giving me compliments purposely to get me red and our smiles and laughs were shared. Have you ever lost yourself looking in someone's eyes? Because that was my first time also. It was the first time I look into someone's eyes and study them. Getting it back, him studying mine. He was everything I wished for in my life, he was my precious one and so close to my heart. He made me fearless, yeah literally fearless after all those years with self-destructive thoughts. Everything was going well.

  As you are lost now; how you feel now; the confusing stage you are put in; we were as well. Two people, two weak souls that made each other stronger...they were afraid to fall in love. Yet, they both new they were...