waiting for the right moment

chapter fourteen

31/12/2016

   It is the last day of the year and all the prefect things are happening to me and Zoe. I woke up feeling refreshed. I dressed up and went to my class we had fun and he showed up to get his physics copybook, my hair was straight with my bangs falling on my face…  He told Zoe that I looked cute today maybe he tells her that just because he doesn’t want me to take it in the other way and I appreciate this. 

  After our teacher had left we always sit more time with the girls to solve more worksheets and study… he was talking to Zoe on Whatsapp without me knowing. Telling her he’s bored so she told him to drop by if he wants. I didn’t want this because I didn’t want my mother to think about it in the wrong way and I‘m scared she would misunderstand me. He stopped by sat in another room with Zoe. I sat with them because they were having fun *lie* because i wanted to see him and she was somehow talking about her problems I got coat up in the chat forgetting my phone on the charger in the other room. I regret sitting with them even though I did nothing wrong or talked anything in a way other than friends. My mom was constantly ringing my phone without me realizing, and she hates this because she gets worried. My friends called out for me to come pick up the phone, seeing the amount of missed calls my heart sank. I dailed her quickly and yes her voice was nearly heard to the other room (typical mama).
Aiden asked me if everything is okay and made sure i calm down before getting home.

   It is the New Years Eve and I can’t wait to live the last minutes happy and celebrating new year with my dearly loved ones.

  I celebrated it with my family and it gone well, really well. We went out and I had my family beside me. I had celebrated it on social media with the most two that are special to me Zoe and Aiden. We shared our last words and our vows. I didn’t expect to celebrate my new year with him. I thought we both wouldn’t work our problems but we did and I couldn’t be more thankful for this.  

  Those two are so special to me. I can’t risk losing any of them. They are simply my life, now we’re making memories together as three best friends I don’t know if he still has feelings for me but I really don’t care now because he doesn’t talk about it to me… he has no one so he’s been talking about everything with Zoe like he’s  missing me and he doesn’t want to lose me or to love me again. But he isn’t doing anything to me he is acting as friends  and until he says anything, I’ll stop talking to him because I don’t want to lose my tutoring center or do the same mistake again I moved on simply ( another lie ).