Every meek needs a kola..

Baby shower fever

2weeks later:November: baby shower fever: my place was crowded with family and friends. My girl Eva did her thing with the beautiful decorations and major did his thing with the food. I watch as everybody was laughing and joking. Meek and my dad was outside talking we all was glad he was home but still disappointed with him. But that's my brother for life he just needs to get his shit together. I looked at jazz round belly she looked gorgeous pregnant. I looked around for kola she haven't really been interacting with people I mean this whole thing was for her I decided to go find her. After searching my house I found her upstairs in my room laying in the bed. Kola I said. Yes she said. How the hell u not at your own baby shower I said flopping down on my king size bed. I don't even know half of those peoples. So they still came to support u and the baby have you seen those gifts girl that baby is set until she's five I said laughing. Thanks jamy for everything I don't want u to think that I'm being ungrateful it just that I'm not happy I'm suppose to be happy smiling from ear to ear with those people but I can't every time I think about it I cry I moved on I moved out and I still cry every night I'm tired of crying but I can't help it. I can't be around meek like it angers me to be around him. My kids love him so much I can't take that joy away from them but the joy that I had for him he took it away i don't want to be this angry bitter black woman I want to be happy I deserve that and I'm not. Look kola I understand everything you saying remember Andre put me threw hell and back I mean he disrespected me and ways that I promise u wouldn't even want to imagine I'm 27 years old and I have been threw some shit I feel like I'm 30 already. I wanted to give up on life when I was only 20 I thought about killing myself but then I remember all the people who actually cared about me my parents,my brother, you, my friends, and most importantly those two little boys who call me auntie. From that moment I realize that I loved my life and myself more than Andre and I had to let him go yeah it hurt but I did what I needed to do and the mist of that I found love again. I wipe kola Tears away And hug her. I love you sis ,It's going to be okay you have so many people who care about you. I love you too. Now let's go downstairs and eat and enjoy ourselves I said. Okay she said getting up her belly was looking huge day by day let me get myself together I will meet u down there she said. Okay I said leaving out my room and going back downstairs. Damn J I been searching all around for you where Is kola meek said. Nigga u are pushing it just leave her alone she don't want to be bother. I just wanna talk to her. Meek u did this u can't fix it this time bro I'm telling u as your sister just leave her alone. Ight sis he said walking away. I walk over and sat by my mother. Where is kola? She's coming we just had another woman2woman. Is she okay? Yeah she's getting there. I hope so I want a healthy glam girl. Glam girl? I said looking at her. Yeah a glamorous babygirl she said. I shook my head u always coming up with stuff I said. So what I use to call you Hollywood she said laughing. Mom please don't go down memory lane I said. Where is dad? In the kitchen with major. Speaking of major that's a fine young man and he's good with the grill how come you and him never hit it off. I gave her a look. Mom I'm not about to have this conversation with u besides major is gay I said. My mom mouth hung open. Mom I just playing I said. Stop playing girl she said. I'm about to make a plate do u want one I said. Yeah thanks she said. I got up and walk in the kitchen my dad and major was cracking jokes as usual. Just like my mother said major was one fine man. I made me and my mother a plate and took it to her. Kola was coming down the stairs all eyes was on her she was glowing in her all white Christian Dior pagoda sleeve dress. Thank you all for coming this really means a lot to me the Williams family have been by my side for 11 years they have been more a family to me i really appreciate the love and support. Everybody clapped. Kola walk over and sat down. My door bell rung I got up and answered it. Once opening the door kola mother Lola stood Infront of me. Her and the rest of her siblings..