Every meek needs a kola..

new beginnings

Four months later: the nightmares wouldn't go away It's been four month's and I still wake up hearing that gun shot watching her body fall on the floor I still felt her blood on my face I was scarred for life. I couldn't stay in that house anymore just thinking about how she killed herself in my driveway was too much. I found a Big condo in downtown Philly it was beautiful it was Big enough for the 8 of us. Me the Big 3 which is Ryan,Kali,and royal. Rahmeek,rahkeem,lance and Lina. This was a place Where I could See me raising them all in. After everything That's been going on I decided we all needed a vacation they chose Disneyland so Disneyland it is. Meek was Getting the Big 3 today cause our plane leaves tomorrow afternoon. Ryan and Kali was in the play pin playing while I was changing royal Pamper she was so gorgeous I Love her like she was my own. just Looking at her remind me so much of Swazi. I knew what it was like to not have a mother but Royal was just a baby she deserved to have a mother i will be that for her i could never replace swazi and i wasnt trying too.But meek couldnt do this parenting alone.Hey baby I said tickling her stomach she laughed. I pick her she was chunky just like her sisters. She grab my face. And slob all over it. Ewww I said playfully wiping my face. Meek walk in my room. Hey loves he said. Hey I said to him. Get any sleep he asked. A little bit still having dreams but I'm good. I Really appreciate the way u taking care of royal these last couple months I don't think any other Woman would have been Woman enough to do it. Yeah Well I'm not any Other Woman I said kissing royal cheek and passing her to him. He played with royal and the twins while I finish packing my things. I came to talk to You about that trip meek said. What about it I said. I wanna Come with yall. You can Come If u want but just know the Big 3 is being left with u . Cool with me they daddies girls anyway he said. He Definitely wasn't lying once he Come around the Big 3 didn't know nobody. It was so cute though how they clung to him. After packing the girls things I finally had to give meek Something I still had. I think it time for me to give this to You After all this time I finally took the ring off my finger it was no point to keep wearing it I was moving on with my life. Keep it Kola I don't want it. Please meek can u just take it I said. We have a whole family we can get threw this meek said. I can't meek You hurt me so bad I just want us to Try and be the best parents we can be That's all I want . Meek pull me close and kiss my lips passionately that spark was still there I finally broke the kiss. No matter what I'm always going to Love You rahmeek I said. I will always Love You too kola...