everything is red [jd.tj]

ch. 12

Tyler
Ever since I told Josh part of the reason I don't talk, he's been very distance from me. He hasn't said anything too rude nor has physically hurt me, which is good. But I can't help but feel that he's pittying me, which I don't want. It's in the past, I hope to get over it eventually and talk again, but now, I'm not saying a word. Oh well, I am not complaining, it's quite nice actually. I actually haven't been bullied in a few days, but I just hope Josh didn't tell any of his friends anything.

Tutoring after school has been going well too. Josh is very quiet and is genuinely helping me. I don't know what's gotten in him, but I like it. Just stay pretty and keep your mouth shut.

I glanced at the yellow haired boy beside me, looking at the homework with an intense yet focus glare. I smile lightly and turn my attention back to my sheet.

It's sad though really, he's only being like this out of pitty, meaning he would never treat me nicely, even if I were a normal person. It was apparently too sad because suddenly I hear a little splash beneath. I look down further and see a little wet spot on the paper. Oh look, I'm crying. I quickly steal a glance at Josh seeing if he's noticed, and thank god he didn't. I wipe my eyes, but that doesn't do jack because there's just more coming. What's wrong with me?

"T-Tyler? Are you okay?" Crap, he noticed. Now I'm gonna get beat up for sure, but I just shake it off and nod my head. I try not to look up at him because if I do, I know the dam will break. I hear him shift in the seat next to me, causing my body to go stiff.

"What's wrong Ty?"

I look up at him, cracking a smile. 'I'm fine' I mouthed, but that doesn't do anything because the tears are still rolling down, hot and fresh, kissing my skin lightly. He frowns deeper, making me feel guiltier. He may be a bum, but someone as pretty as him shouldn't put on a sad face. I look back down at my paper, before making a bold move.

"You should go."