Miracle

(18) I'm fine

Here I am again. Sitting in the hospital with Miracle.

She was never awake and I learned that as soon as I got here. Kinsey asked me if I was okay or if I needed to go home, but I refused.

I'm fine.

I sat back down in my seat and rested my head on my arm that was being propped up by my elbow.

By the time I was almost asleep a knock was on the room door. I shot up out of my chair and opened it. In came the nurse carrying a bunch of different things.

She looked at me and smiled, "I brought you a cot. I figured that chair was a little uncomfortable"

A small smile grew upon my face as I looked at this kind lady, "thank you so much"

She nodded her head and placed the pillows and blanket down on my bed for I don't even know how long.

"I'm gonna shut this light off. I'll be back in around like 2:30 just for a check up and make sure she is stable"

I looked up at the clock and it was already 12:00 in the morning. I definitely need sleep. I haven't slept in exactly a day.

As the nurse left I climbed up onto my cot and closed my eyes, sleep was gonna be easy for me at the moment. But, not when you hear mumbling and groaning.

I rolled over ignoring it, but then it hit me.

Firefly.

I jumped up and moves to her side. Her beautiful blue eyes twitched and I raced out the door pulling in the nurse.

"She was mumbling and groaning. Her eyes were twitching!" I spoke excitedly.

The nurse bent down to Miracle and checked a few things before stepping back and putting her hands on my shoulder, "I'm sorry. She wasn't mumbling or groaning. She's nowhere near that stage yet. I think you should get some sleep"

She was about to walk away but I grabbed her arm, "No! No! She was mumbling something! I swear I heard her! She's just not doing it now!"

Sticking with what I knew I stood there looking at Miracle, the horse was right. She wasn't moving or mumbling, nor was she groaning.

"I'm sorry" I sighed. I sat down on the edge of the bed and put my head in my hands. "I'm so sorry for that"

The nurse put her hand on my head and ruffled my hair up a bit, "it's alright kiddo. It happens when you have a loved one in the hospital. You think you hear or know something but it's not really there. It's kind of part of a hallucination, except it's from stress and being scared. It's just your body's way of letting out your emotions"

I looked up at her then down at her stomach, I never noticed before. I looked back up and back down towards her stomach. She laughed a little before putting her hand on her growing belly.

"It's a boy. Honestly, I was expecting it to be a girl but boom! Here he is in my ultrasound." She looked down at me and turned around grabbing the swivel chair, "look, it's hard for you to be here right now. Every single man in this world should do the exact same thing for the women they love. The hallucination's the feelings you have for this girl, this is something I want my boy to grow up and be. I want him to love with all his heart and care just as much as you do. Not every day do I see a teenage boy sitting in his girlfriend's hospital room crying and just breaking down because he loves her so much. I don't get to see stuff like this on the daily, so right now as bad as it may sound. I'm enjoying it, I'm enjoying the way you care and how much you love her. It makes me happy. She needs you, and you aren't giving up on her. I'm not even sure if my husband would go the lengths of what you're going through, for me. Every second you talk to her, every second you look at her, I bet you she knows. I bet you she knows and is saying on the inside, I need to fight this for him. For the boy who has spent sleepless nights and scary hallucinations. You are a good boy, and I will make sure she knows that as soon as she wakes up. I'm going to tell her how much you actually care. I'm going to tell her to never let you go because you are something she should hold on to. I probably don't even have to tell her these things, because, Aaron she already knows."

The nurse stood back up and pushed the seat back to where it came from, "There is no giving up in your body. So, keep it that way"

And there I sat with those words pondering in my head for the rest of the night.

* * * * * *

When the sun came out I was already up and getting myself a coffee for this uneventful day. I just had a feeling nothing was going to change today so I was just going to make some laps around the hospital and get some exercise instead of sitting in that depressing room.

After the nurse giving me a much-needed pep talk, I've decided to let myself in a better mood.

Miracle didn't need me to sit around and cry, she needed me to be me. The happy me and the exciting me. I made my way back to the room and there was a very unexpected visit.