I went home. I found my mom on the sofa reading a cooking magazine. I thought I'd just go to my room and shut the whole world off. But I guess my plan didn't work.
"Honey, why are you back? It's 9 a.m" She said putting the magazine down. I hid my face with my hair because I'm pretty sure I had bloodshot eyes and tear streaks and I don't want her to get worried.
"Violet, what happened? were you crying?" I didn't want to think about it, but she asked about it and I remembered everything that happened.
'You don't think of anyone except yourself'
His voice echoed my thoughts, and I couldn't seem to get him off of my mind.
"I messed up mom.." I said, then cried more.
I tried texting him and calling him while I was walking back home, but I think he blocked my number.
"I let the only boy who actually loved me slip away because I was scared and selfish" I said and sobbed on her shoulder.
"I lied to him, and led him on a road that has no way back" I continued.
"Phoenix, right? How did he find out?" She brushed my hair and asked. "Erica told the whole school about it. Now everyone calls me cancer girl" I answered, and she just closed her eyes and told me that it'll be okay.
"No mom, nothing will be okay" I argued, "Why do you keep fighting when you're clearly losing? Why?" I asked.
"Violet, it doesn't matter if you win or lose, what matters is that you did your best and fought" She got up beside me and hugged me.
"I'm done going to school" I said after a while of silence.
"What, why?" She asked.
"Mom. Let's face it. I'm dying, what's the point?" I coldly said. She hates it when I remind her of the 'dying' situation, but it will happen whether I liked it or not.
"Okay.. do whatever you'd like to do" She said, not catching my gaze.
I sighed softly and went upstairs to my room.
There goes another person that I hurt today.
I got out my diary, and realized that I had only one page left. So, I wrote in it,
Dear Diary,
This is the last page, and ironically, I messed up everything. But at least I survived today.
The whole school now knows about Rose, and have her pictures of when Brandon did what he did, also, everyone found out about my leukaemia. Including Phoenix.
He won't talk to me, won't answer my calls or my texts. So, I'll just leave him alone today, but tomorrow I have to face him.
I can't leave this world and let someone be upset with me.
I agree, what I did was wrong and stupid. But I'm trying to fix my mistakes before it's too late.. Is it too late?
I wrote that, and then closed the diary.
It's done, my bucket list.
I thought by the time I'll finish it I'd be happy, but guess what? I'm feeling the total opposite.
I got up to put my book on the desk but I felt my head pounding, and my heart began racing.
What's happening?
I tried moving to the door, but I fell down. The room was spinning and I swear I felt myself float for a second.
"M-mom!" I tried to call her, hoping that she'll hear me.
"mom.." I said, a bit quietly this time. My throat hurt me and my voice came out as a whisper. But she thankfully heard me.
"Violet!"
That was the last thing I heard before everything suddenly went black.
☆Phoenix Brightly's POV☆
I was beyond heartbroken. Beyond mad.
I went to that hidden beach that she took me to, and kept replaying the events from last night where I told her that I'm falling for her.
She lied, Phoenix.
I cannot believe that she's dying. This can't be real.
The only time that I actually love someone, the world decides to take them away from me. It's not fair.
Maybe it's just my luck.
I sat there staring at the waves for at least two straight hours. Not until I decided to get up and fix things with Violet.
I'm being a huge drama queen.
She only wanted to ease the pain. She didn't want me to find out because she thought I'd get hurt.
She cared, and I basically called her selfish.
I'm such an asshole.
I got up quickly, ready to ride my bike and head to her house and try to fix everything. But Dylan kept calling me.
I literally had 12 missed calls from him and 23 texts from Asher.
I decided to wait for another call, if he called, I'll pick up. If he didn't then fuck it.
Not a minute passed, and he called. I knew he'd call.
"What do you want, Dylan?" I asked, not amused by anything. And clearly not wanting to talk to him or to Asher because they hid the truth away from me.
"Phoenix. You have to come to the hospital. It's Violet" He said, and I swear I heard Rose and Cindy, Violet's mother, crying in the background.
"W-which hospital?" I asked, and he gave me the information.
I thought they said that she'd have like 3 weeks left. She can't leave now.
She can't leave now. Not like this.
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120 Days Left
Teen Fiction"It was an accident, I didn't want to hurt you like this, I never meant to fall in love with you.." She told him and looked at the ground, tears threatened to fall from her eyes. He held her hand, and smiled at her "Who falls in love on purpose any...
